HE MADE ME FEEL DISGUSTED

Jackcy's Point of View

When I left his house, I was a complete mess, I was running on the road like I don't want to see the next day, and my eyes were blurry and I got hit by a car, there was nothing serious but my knees started bleeding, and the blonde guy was not ready to leave me like that, he forced me to drop me home, and after hearing his pleadings I could not resist him more, so I agreed to go with him and to be honest, there was no strength left in my body to run like mad till my home, he was looking decent, and he helped me to sit in his car,

I don't know why I feel this way, but it seemed like I have seen him before, but my mind was not helping me to remind me, so dismiss the idea of thinking about him, I sat on the seat and I was just watching out from the window, and my heart was beating so fast as I felt Luther was near me, but then I remember so well the words he said about me, and it hurts a lot, but I was strongly feeling his presence,

Then suddenly my eyes caught something on the side mirror of the car, and my feeling was so genuine, here he was following this car, my stomach felt a lot of butterflies as my heart was beating so fast, he still cares for me, he could not trust any stranger, that is why he was following me,

I was feeling a little hope somehow and I was happy but I did not express it on my face, I remained the same, I forgot that I did not tell the address to the guy, I wondered where he was taking me,

before I could say anything he stopped the car in front of the hospital, I tried to stop him but he jumped out of the car and he opened the door for her, I refused to come out as I was not feeling it was a big deal, but I could say that guy was so stubborn, he asked my hand and took me inside, he made me sit on the bench and went to ask for a doctor,

I was still feeling that Luther was watching me from distance and then I did not realize when I blacked out on the bench,

When I opened my eyes, there was a few tubes were connected to my hands and the glucose tube too, I asked the doctor to remove all this as I do not need it all, but the doctor scolded me and said that I needed it a lot as my body was so weak from last few weeks as I was not eating properly, so I stayed there some time, I again felt that Luther was watching me through to the window,

but why the hell he was not coming inside to see me, at least once, I waited for him but he never showed himself, and then after an hour I got discharged and the blonde guy dropped me home, he paid my hospital bill as well, I tried to give him the money back but he did not take that and left me,

I slept till evening as I went to my tiny apartment, I told Lisa everything, she was so worried about me, she wanted to come to see me, but I told her that I badly want to sleep, so she told me to take care of myself and she will come to see me at night and hang up the phone,

I woke up in the evening and took a hot shower which was needed to calm my body, I baked some bread for myself and made a cup of coffee as the doctor seriously warned me not to stay hungry, then I quickly changed my clothes into my uniform, yeah I need to go for my job,

I know Luther told me not to go for that job again, but now when he does not care about me, why should I listen to him,

I need this job so badly, I have Luke to take care of, or who will take care of his needs, he has no one except me, some tears fell from my eyes as my stupid mind reminded me of my past, I quickly wiped my tears and got ready for my job, I hope I will not see him, not today at least, I locked my apartment, and headed into the club,

I started my work, I was feeling a bit low today but it was better, then I got to know that today is a private party in the club, so no outsider will be there, I somehow felt happy, but my happiness got vanished instantly as I saw Alesso and Kriss, and then got to know that it is Kriss's birthday party, they mean Luther will be here,

I was doing my work in the kitchen when someone grabbed me from behind and started to kiss me, I have seen him sitting with them, which means he was Kriss's friend, he was trying to kiss me and I hit him so hard making his lip bleeding, and then he cursed me and threaten me, which I ignored for sure, he made me feel disgusting, I went out and see Luther was drinking alcohol like an alcoholic,

as I know him, he never liked alcohol, but today he was out of limit, I was watching him when he headed out from there, as I could guess, he was about to puke and searching the washroom, he bumped into a table and I hold his hand and he hugged me then, I pulled myself back and took him to the washroom, and he vomits all the drinks he was drinking forcibly,

I made him drink some water and washed his face, he was looking for some relief and watching me with blank eyes, as I wiped his face with my hanky, I took him into a small room, which was a changing room for girls, I made him sit on the bench, and took my phone out of my pocket and dialed Alesso's number, of course, I have all his friend' number,

"Hello, Alesso, it is Jackcy" before I could complete my sentence, he grabbed me on his lap and cut the phone call,