Attention

Xiang Wai wasn't actually as complicated of a person as people around her believed her to be. All she ever wanted was attention. The reason why she loved her brother so much was that Xiang Weimin was willing to give her the attention she sought. The biggest reason why she was hopelessly in love with Zhai Yanjun even after all these years was that he always made her feel like she was needed in his life.

Even if it didn't feel like love. At least, it made her believe she was important but eventually, she was greedy for that love. It was a shame that Zhai Yanjun didn't even know how to love. 

Perhaps that's why Xiang Wai was feeling happy today, she was the center of attention and it felt good. She had done a lot of absurd things in her life to catch the attention of people around her. But she had forgotten that she never had to do much in school to have that attention.