Chapter 21

Ash's POV

The ground was cold and I felt the asphalt digging into my palm when I leaned back. The sky looked just like my nightmare— I couldn't see any stars.

I couldn't see the dark blue expanse of the sky. There was only black, dull, grey smoke clouding up high.

It almost made me feel worse by being out here. But after thinking about it, anything would be better than suffocating in the same room with him, with all these questions bouncing in my head, making me go insane slowly. I didn't want to know what he would say next because I... just can't. I haven't gather enough power to muster up my courage or to face him and react the way I needed to.

I squeezed my eyes shut and prayed to god that I could make it out of this strong enough— Brave enough and selfless enough.

Because I needed to be strong for Jace, for the both of us.