CHAPTER 16

Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses na ba akong napagalitan ng supervisor namin.Ilang araw na akong wala sa sarili habang nagtatrabaho at dahil doon ay ilang customer na din ang nagrereklamo.Buti na lamang at hindi pa ako natatanggal sa trabaho.

Isang linggo na ang nakalipas magmula ng kaarawan ni Zaire at kaarawan ni Ryder.Isang linggo na rin na hindi ko nakikita si Ryder,i think he never visits our house.Manang lota was always there to comfort me when i always end up being depress while waiting for him to come back home.

Hindi ko alam kung kailan siya babalik pero paulit ulit akong umaasa na baka isang araw,yakapin niya ako kapag nagbalik na siya.Gustong gusto ko siyang makita o marinig man lang ang boses niya kahit sa cellphone man lang.

Napabuntong hininga ako bago puntahan si Zaire.Nangako ako sa kanya na magmomovie marathon kami sa bahay para makabawi ako sa kanya dahil sa pag-alis ko nung birthday niya.He agreed at mukhang excited siya dahil don.We prefer to watch a horror movie that a romance one dahil boring daw kapag ganun.

Hindi ko masyadong gusto ang horror movies hindi dahil takot ako sa multo kundi dahil nandidiri lang ako.You know those cannibal---ugh!fine!I'm scared of ghost.

I knocked three times before i get in.Zaire was sitting on the floor while playing a soldier toy.He was childish infront of me but intimidating in others.Tuwing pupuntahan ko siya ay laging nakalabas ang laruang pambata niya at tuwing sekretarya o empleyado naman ay laging ballpen at papel ang hawak niya.

He looked at me before he pouted.He motioned the floor,inviting me to sit down.Umupo naman ako at tumingin lang sa kanya.Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagtawa ng gumawa siya ng tunog habang naglalaro non.I admit,he was so cute and adorable while he was doing that.

Ryder was childish too but he never played a toy.Minsan lang siya magiging isip bata kapag nag-aaway kami o naglalambing siya.Mas gusto ko ang side niyang iyon kaysa sa ugali niyang napakasungit at lamig.And why the hell iam comparing him?Alam ko namang mas higit siya kahit kanino.He was perfect for me and no one will change that.

Tumayo ako at hinila si Zaire patayo pero hindi siya nagpatinag sa paglalaro.I sighed before i faced him with no expression written on my face.His gazed dropped on me before he fastly put his toy on the box at nakangiting humarap sa akin.

"Let's go?"He asked at inilahad pa ang kamay sa harapan ko.I rolled my eyes on him bago nanguna sa sasakyan niya.In one week without Ryder in my life,Zaire was always driving me home and sometimes,he was in my house to cooked me foods.

"Conjuring 3 nalang ang panoorin natin?Hindi ko pa iyon napapanood eh."He requested and i only answered by nodding at him.Hindi ko naman alam yun at wala naman akong balak manood.I'm going to pretend i'm watching but i will use my phone.

Mabilis ang pagpapatakbo niya ng sasakyan pero hindi ako nagreklamo.If i will complain,he will not listen.Wala siyang pakielam kung may kasama siya dahil kung gusto niya ay dapat nakukuha niya.

"Nandito na tayo."He announce at nauna pang bumaba sa akin.He opened the door for me before he entered our house na parang sarili niyang bahay.I didn't stopped him dahil kaibigan ko siya at i trust him.

Ilang beses na din siyang natulog sa kuwarto ni Ryder.Hindi naman kami pwedeng magtabi dahil hindi ako sanay na hindi si Ryder ang taong kasama ko.

He sat down on the sofa while I preparing the T.V. and connecting it to my phone.Si Zaire ang kumalikot ng Netflix ko bago may lumabas sa screen ng T.V.

I sat down beside him bago pasimpleng kinuha ang cellphone ko.He didn't noticed it so i just focused my whole attention on my phone.I played Mobile legends but i got boring dahil minions lang naman ang napapatay ko at nireport nadin ako ng kakampi ko.I just play 'Talking tom' dahil yun lang naman ang Laro sa cellphone ko.

I don't know how minutes i played that,i just stopped when someone tapped my hands.It was Zaire at ngayon ko lang napansin na pinause niya pala yung movie at nasa akin ang buong atensyon niya.I smiled akwardly dahil sa hiya.

"Ikaw ang nag-aya mag movie marathon,tapos hindi ka manonood?"He raised his brows and crossed his arms.

"Horror kasi yan.I don't like horror movies."I explained but he just shooked his head before getting my cellphone and hide it inside his pants.For fuck sake!Inside his freaking pants!Gosh!

I rolled my eyes at him kahit na alam kong hindi niya iyon nakita dahil nasa pinapanood na ang buong atensyon niya.I just reached the book under the table and looked at the pictures there.It was so boring!

I felt someone staring at me and when i looked at Zaire nasa T.V. parin ang tingin niya.Or maybe i just hallucinating things?My gazed dropped on the door and i nearly dropped my jaw when i saw him!The person i missed!The person i want to hug!

Right now,all i wanted is to kiss him but i just remembered the pain he cause me when he didn't came home on his birthday to see my surprise.Napalitan ng inis at tampo ang pangungulila sa puso ko.It was hurting to make an effort for nothing.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at itinuon na lamang ang paningin sa telebisyon na sana ay hindi ko nalang ginawa dahil bigla na lamang may lumitaw na nakakatakot na itsura doondahilan para mapayakap ako sa taong nasa tabi ko.This is i hated when i'm watching horror movies.Kahit hindi ko close basta nasa tabi ko ay yayakapin at yayakapin ko kapag nagulat ako.

I felt Zaire stilled when i hugged him but he encircled his arms around my waist at kinalma ako.I don't want to move dahil baka makita ko na naman ang nakakatakot na itsurang iyon.I hate it!I hate horror movies!

"Hands off."I heard Ryder's voice before i felt someone pulled me and slammed me on his body.When i looked up,it was Ryder who was looking at me with emotion in his eyes that i don't want to name.

"Easy.I'm just calming her.You see,she was scared because of the movie."Zaire explained while he was smirking at tila nang-aasar pa kung tumingin.I'm aure Ryder was pissed dahil kung ako,maiinis talaga ako sa ngisi at tingin ni Zaire.

"I don't care.Just get out of my house."Ryder said coldly at pinilit akong hilahin but i insist.

I promised Zaire that he will sleep here tonight.I promise him that i will accompany him tonight para makabawi sa pag-alis ko nung birthday niya at sa lahat lahat ng ginawa niya nung nasaktan ako dahil wala si Ryder.Ayaw kong mapako ang pangakong iyon dahil lang kay Ryder.

Hinarap ko si Ryder na nagtataka sa inasta ko.His eyes was full of question pero hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang masagutan lahat ng katanungan niya.

"Zaire will sleep here tonight.Sa kuwarto mo siya matutulog."I said with authorative on my voice.

I saw how Ryder's face crumpled bago ako hinila papuntang kuwarto ko.He locked the door before he hugged me from behind.His hugged melted my anger and sadness.Bakit ba kasi ang rupok ko pagdating sa kanya?

"That's my room.I don't want to share my things to him."He softly said.I felt that he was kissing and sucking my neck and it was burning my body with desire.I want him.

"Unless,you want him to stay in my room and sleep beside me?"I faced him and tried to read his reactions.I saw jealousy on his eyes but it suddenly disappeared and Happiness filled his eyes.

"You want me to sleep beside you?Right?"He was jumping like a child when i nodded at him.this was his side i love the most.The childish and playful one.

Hihiga na sana ako sa kama ng maramdaman kong bumaliktad ang sikmura ko.I ran towards the bathroom at doon isinuka lahat kahit wala namang lumalabas mula sa bibig ko.I felt a little dizziness too.

"Are you okay?"I felt Ryder caressing my back."I don't know about this but i think you're pregnant,love."

I stilled at halos hindi ako makagalaw sa kinaluluhuran ko.Hindi ko alam pero bigla na lang pumasok sa isip ko ang pagiging emosyonal ko kahit sa maliliit na bagay.Ang pagiging maiinitin ang ulo sa ibang tao.Ang pagsakit ng ulo ko tuwing umaga.Never i thought that i will get pregnant and i just remembered when we doing that thing ay wala kaming ginagamit na proteksyon.

"Baka dahil lang ito sa nakain ko kaninang hapon."I reasoned pero halos parehas kami ng naiisip ni Ryder.I watched some romantic movies at ganitong ganito ang nararanasan nila kapag buntis sila.I don't want to get pregnant dahil hindi pa stable ang relasyon namin ni Ryder.

"Love,masarap ang ginawa natin at hindi natin maiiwasan ang makabuo."He chuckled causing me to glared at him. "I licked you,You sucked me,I enter you,i thrust in and out and i spilled my juices inside you.Mabubuntis ka talaga dahil ilang beses na nating ginawa iyon at talagang masarap."

My cheeks reddened dahil sa mga pinagsasabi niya.Nahihiya ako dahil sa pranka niyang pagsasalita.He doesn't even know how to used filter while talking dirty things.My hands instantly moved and it's landed on his face causing him to shut up and winced in pain.

"You fucking jerk!"I shouted on his face at dali daling lumabas ng kuwarto.I saw Zaire entering Ryder's room so i enetered too bago inilock ang pintuan.I'm mad at Ryder dahil sa piangsasabi niya!It was embarrassing!

I heard him calling my name but i just ignored it dahil baka kung ano na naman ang lumabas sa bibig non.I just lay my body on the bed.I saw Zaire was looking at me with confusion written on his face.I just smiled at him bago pinilit ang mata.

I felt something lay beside me before my body shut down.

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