5 Chapter 5

Lucy's POV

There was just a moment that I wondered if Natsu was awake as I pleased him, kissing along his torso. The way his skin shivered and the way his moans seemed to respond to my words. But no when I checked he was definitely asleep after all how would he be able to stay so still while I handled him so roughly? 

I don't normally talk to him while I do that kind of thing but I really felt a need to voice myself today. I look at the clock on the wall to see that a few hours had passed by, it was now 2 in the afternoon. I sighed so much for it only lasting an hour or two. 

Then I smiled, food was the answer! Nothing could wake him up like food could. I run over to the lacrima on the wall and asked about lunch. They seemed surprised that I waited so long and I apologized saying I had fallen asleep after moving Natsu to the bed. 

They asked if he was doing better and I reported saying that he was still fast asleep. The chef apologized saying that that did happen sometimes but by looking at the time he should wake up any minute. I confessed that that was the real reason I wanted the food and a lot of it. He could eat out an entire restaurant or cafe.

He laughed heartily and told me there was nothing to worry about he had us covered for the entire trip with extra supplies just in case. We turned off the lacrima and I returned to Natsu's side. I had made sure to put his shirt back on him and now, with me fully clothed, I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes. I decided that falling asleep again while waiting for the food should be alright. 

Natsu's POV

I wake up again and this time I remember everything, from Lucy's apartment to the train and smoothies and the bathtub even the bed. I immediately had a hard on. I start to sit up when I realize something is on my chest. I look down to see Lucy sleeping fully clothed and wait did I see tear stains on her cheeks? It must have all been a dream, I want to cry.

Why had she been crying? Instead of getting up I gently rub my thumb on her face trying to wipe away the moisture but it was already dry. I sigh out loud, "Luce if you only knew how much I love you." I let my head fall back again and proceed to run my fingers through her hair.

"I love you more than a rainbow is colorful; I love you more than the full moon is bright on a clear night sky. I love you more than I love being in Fairy Tail. But you can never love me." I pause here still stroking her soft silky hair. "Because you are a star on a moonless night sky showing the way and I am the volcano that takes life away, erupting and destroying everything in my way." 

I start to laugh at myself bitterly. "That almost sounded like a poem huh? To bad; I bet you could have turned it into something beautiful, you can do that, you know? Turn things beautiful. At first I thought you were just showing others the beauty you already saw but then I saw you turn something so ugly, absolutely nothing redeemable at all about it, into a work of art." I sigh and groan to myself. "I need to stop reading your books while you sleep, but if I do how am I supposed to understand what is going on in your head?" 

I gently caress her with my hand as I watched her soft sweet face. "I wish my dreams were true and you really did love me. " I start, resting my head back again to look at the ceiling. "But how could you love me? All I do is destroy when you create." I slightly moan remembering my dream. 

"I had a wonderful dream though," I smile my eyes now closed as I settled back to sleep again. "You told me you loved me." I sigh out and I drift off again. 

Lucy's POV

"Luce if you only knew how much I love you. I love you more than a rainbow is colorful; I love you more than the full moon is bright on a clear night sky. I love you more than I love being in Fairy Tail. But you can never love me." A short pause before he continued. "Because you are a star on a moonless night sky showing the way and I am the volcano that takes life away, erupting and destroying everything in my way." 

I start to cry again, how could he feel like that? He tried so hard to protect Fairy Tail all the time, our family and friends and he feels like all he does is destroy things? He is the most amazing man I know and he feels like this? I listen as he spoke his words tearing a hole in my heart the longer he spoke the more I wanted to hold him to me.

I'm awake now but he doesn't seem to notice as I quietly cry on his chest. 

"I had a wonderful dream though, you told me you loved me." he sighed as he held me close to him. He probably thought I was having a bad dream but I couldn't help it. 

How could he think I'm so great when all I do is mess things up? I am always the one who gets kidnapped, I am always the one who has to be saved. I'm the reason he gets hurt all the time and I put such unrealistic faith in him; I literally threw myself backward out of a ridiculously high tower with my hands tied behind my back, just knowing he would catch me, and then he did. I had no idea where he was; he could have been at the guild still and yet I just knew he would catch me. I cried for several minutes until I finally looked up determined to tell him my thoughts when I realized he was asleep again. 

I went to the bathroom and cleaned myself up again and when I was done I decided enough was enough. I'm going to tell him. I walk out of the bathroom my head held high to find him eating in the kitchen. 

"Hey Luce look there is a bunch of food here!" he waved me over, I can't help but smile at him. "Hurry I saved you a strawberry shake, a cheeseburger and fries!" I laugh and found that he had, he had set them aside from the rest of the food before he started and I could see that he was almost done. I quickly ate only eating half the burger and fries giving the rest too Natsu as I happily drank my shake. I never had to worry about wasting food with him around and I could just eat what I wanted. 

I smile at the thought before saying something that made him freeze, "One of the many reasons I love you." My voice was low enough he could have easily pretended not to hear it. I decide to let him pick which way this goes, I slowly got up and walked over to the bookshelf humming to myself as I picked up a pair of speed reading glasses, they were easily twice as fast as my own and they were not even the fastest pair there. 

I do a little happy dance perfectly happy with these now that I know Natsu likes to read without anyone knowing, I wanted to leave the fastest pair for him. "To think they said we were welcome to anything here!" I say in a much louder voice pretending I hadn't said anything before it. I do a little happy dance and pick up a small stack of books to read practically skipping to the couch to get comfortable. I set myself up so that I wouldn't be able to see the bookshelf at all so that he could read with me if he wanted to.

Natsu's POV

"One of the many reasons I love you." Lucy had barely breathed the words but I heard them. My whole body froze, I definitely heard her say it. I watched as she skipped to the bookshelf getting excited about reading and I watched as she set a stack of books practically hiding in a corner yet she was still bubbly and happy almost as if she hasn't realized she had spoken out loud at all. 

Should I say something? Should I tell her I love her too? What if she didn't mean it that way what if she meant it like family and not as lovers. I quietly walked over to her grabbing an extremely fast pair of glasses on my way and read over her shoulders. I made it just in time to see the beginning. 

I quietly read over her shoulders at a seemingly faster rate than her without bothering her. I lean forward and almost kiss her once when it got to a really romantic part in the book. I had to pull away and shake myself a little bit. Thankfully I didn't get behind and I was able to stay caught up in the story. 

We spent several hours reading like this her entire stack of books were gone before I knew it. Most had been novels but there has been several history books and spell books. I learned that I could heal small wounds like light cuts or bruises with a small spell and that I could even change my hair different colors. Most were silly spells, just meant for everyday life but there had been a couple useful ones like one that would throw me into the air in a fight or one that could make my opponent see multiples of me. 

I learned a lot and I was entertained by the novels. History was a little boring but I found that there was a few battle tactics and strategies that we could still use today. There was one book though I couldn't see how it could be useful, it was a book on investing large amounts of money and how to make a profit. I almost groaned at that one but I read it anyway. It did have some smaller investing options in it that I could see myself being able to do, but most were for absurdly large amounts of money. 

Overall, I learned a lot and Lucy never looked back once. I don't know if she was interested in what she was reading or not but when she was done I turned around taking the glasses off hiding them in my shirt pocket and pretended to sleep as she put the books away getting 2 more larger stacks and stacking them close by again. 

When I was sure she wasn't paying attention to me I got up again glasses on and I was ready when she opened it to the first page. We continued to read until it was late at night. I had trouble keeping my eyes open and Lucy seemed to be doing fine. We were currently reading about magical beast in the area that we were headed to, Pietra.

Smart, she was studying the area searching maps and looking at plant books all for the place we were headed. No wonder she always knew about the areas for the missions we were on. she even had the past two weeks worth of magazines and newspapers for the place courtesy of one of the conductors through the lacrima. I now probably knew more about this place than I did my own home. I wanted to groan at that thought when I noticed that the other stack of books were for Magnolia and the surrounding areas. 

When she was done with Pietra she went ahead and stretched putting away the material before returning and starting on Magnolia and Fiory in general. The amount of information I learned was outrageous to say the least. I learned all about the plants that I just knew I had in my yard, I learned to garden for our climate and I learned about all the wildlife. In particular I learned about poison and healing herbs. I learned about some banking and the policies that applied to our area. 

When she was done she picked up a book about Exceeds. I was particularly curious about this one because of Happy. I learned that their diet had everything to do with how their magic developed and that the worse thing for magic was too much fish. Great no wonder he was so weak. I groan to myself but then I read that fish however helped make them better flyers and more agile. Maybe I could use that to help Happy out on training?

Then I saw the next book Lucy was picking up. The Mating Practices of Dragons and Dragon Slayers. Why in the hell did she want to read that? I will admit I was curious so again I read over her shoulder. Most I already knew what I didn't know was that when it came to mating the male will never feel like they are enough for the female. The female will always have to claim the male first.

Why in the hell is that? Wait so did that mean that Gajeel feels the same about Levy as I do Lucy? Then how did that work for Sting and Rogue since they were gay? Was one of them more feminine than the other? 

My head hurts. I decide it's actually time for bed as she puts that one down. I quickly and quietly put away the glasses and run over to the chair behind Lucy again and start stretching like I had just woken up. 

"Oh man is that the time? No wonder I'm so tired Luce you should go to bed, I'll sleep on the couch." I offer and freeze. I have never offered to take the couch before why did I do that?

"Don't be silly sleep in the bed it's never stopped you before," came her tired reply. Did she just give me permission to sleep with her? My heart starts to speed up again. All that learning did something to me. I have read a lot of books while at Lucy's house but not like this. 

We have probably read more books today than I have the entire time she had been at fairy tail. I now know more about my home, economics, magic and medicine than I ever have before. I also have maps for both Pietra and Fiory memorized as if I had been studying them my whole life. 

Then a scary realization hit me; we also read romance novels. The kind that made Lucy all squirrely for days daydreaming about her prince coming to save her again and again. Then I froze, save her. I have saved her, a lot. She would get kidnapped and I would lead the charge to come get her. Is that why she loves me?

"Natsu?" I start, Lucy is already dressed and standing by the bed. "You must be tired you fell asleep on your feet," She giggled at me pulling the blankets back. 

I slowly get into bed unsure how I should act, I have never gotten into bed while she was awake before at least not with her getting into bed with me. Lucy pulls the covers over us and snuggles into my arms already closed to sleep. I relax and begin to close my eyes.