Anxiety

Jabi

I feel so happy.

Just a couple of hours ago, I had so much self-doubt and now I am ecstatic. I am lost in a world that Darrien created. A world where I don't have to think about all the things that happened. A world where Lenny doesn't even exist.

I don't even know how the switch came about but there is only joy in my heart. Everything else is inconsequential.

He is the only one that matters, the only one that I think about.

"You are smiling,'' he points out and I open my eyes to see him staring at me--as he usually does.

Darrien also has a dreamy expression plastered on his face.

I literally just had the best sex of my life--I know I say all sex with Darrien is the best sex of my life but this time is different. There was something about tonight that made it different.