Chapter 12

Thank God. I stopped crying and pretended to sleep when Peter came inside the bedroom.

He came to the bed and lied by my side. Then, I felt his arms to come under my neck and his other hand over me.

Next day, I woke up early morning before Peter. I felt that he wanted me to do sex again with him soon. And I knew it very well that he wouldn't let me go back to my dorm because of my health.

That's why I got ready and packed my stuff leaving a message behind on the sticky paper on the alarm clock locker.

I left for my dorm.

When I reached my room, I immediately checked my email to see if the doctor sent me the report result.

But he still didn't send the report result by email. Then I went topmost floor of my dorm and I phoned my consultant.

As I called him, he told me that he would send it, today's evening. I was very frightened. I didn't want to go to college. If I went to take classes then I couldn't get concentrate in the class. And I switched off my mobile so that Peter couldn't contact me. I wanted to be alone.

Then I sat on that floor until my other dormitory friends left for the college so I didn't need to say them a fake reason.

After all friends left for the college, I went to my room and I hardly slept on my bed. I was waiting for the result email so my heart couldn't get rest. Many times, I woke up and I looked outside if the dusk came out. It was a very long day for me in my whole vitality.

As time passed, my entire dormitory college friends started to come. My roommates also came back and when they saw me, they were asking questions to me about the reason that I didn't go to college.

I made up a fake reason to tell them that I went to my parents' house due to some personal justification.

Then the dusk came out, my heart was beating very fast. I just sat before my computer opening the email.

After waiting for 2 hours, I got an email and it was about my report. I didn't know what to do. After many sighs, I built up my energy to see the report result then I just scrolled it down and down.

I was reading it and in conclusion:

"Yes, I was positive for HIV/AIDS."

After seeing it, my tears couldn't stop coming down from my eyes. I was in my room. So, I went to the topmost floor and I commenced to cry louder.

I was only thinking on which point that I slipped and got this ailment. I was totally oblivious.

I was crying and kept memorizing everything that I could memorize. I was sitting on the floor and while crying, I passed out again because I didn't eat anything the whole day and I was exhausted as well.

Nobody knew that I was lonely there in the cold weather, I was exhausted and also that I got passed out there.

When I got consciousness back, it was already dawn. No one came to search for me.

I was too much energy less then I went downstairs back to my room. As my roommates saw me, they asked me what happened to me.

I couldn't speak anything. They gave me water to drink and foods. Then I slept.

When I woke up, they all were already left for college. I was all alone again. I opened my cellphone because I missed my mom.

As I switched on the cellphone, there were lots of missed calls and messages list and yeah, it was of Peter.

Mom phoned me for only four times. But Peter phoned me 211 times and the last call he did was at just 5 minutes earlier.

I was totally shocked about how many times did he called me and messages were 110.

He started to call and message me were from the time when he woke up. I felt like he didn't even take his courses after seeing the call and messages history.

As I was looking for these, ringtone stated to buzz and it was him again.

I received his call then I heard his sound, it was heard like he cried and it was a very heavy pitch.

Then he asked me, "Where have you been? Why did you leave me without waiting for me getting woke up? Why are you so cruel to me? If I did something wrong then I am sorry for it but don't do like this. I was very worried about you. Why did you switch off your cellphone? Are you fine? What happened, dear? How could you do this, huh? You didn't come to college as well."

He asked many questions randomly that I couldn't give any answers.

Then I replied, " I am fine. My cell phone was damaged so it was switched off. I went to my parent's house. Don't worry. I am good."

He told me directly, " If you are fine then come outside within 5 minutes, please. You didn't go to college and your voice isn't clear. I want to see you right away. I was in front of your dormitory. I am waiting for you."

He hung up.

But I was energy less and fatigued. I looked completely sick and exhausted. And I had to go.

I thought how would he respond when he sees me. But I had to go otherwise he would wait for me the whole day and others would see him.

I went out to him slowly. As he saw me, he came to run to hug me. It was comfortable and warm. He hugged me for quite long and he kissed me on my forehead while looking me.

You looked exhausted, dear. And you tried to hide it from me. Tell me truly what came to pass. I want to know.

I didn't have any idea to tell him and I couldn't make up any reason. He was also a student doctor and I felt like he would figure it out if I said anything unlikely.

I stammered while replying, " I....I....I was.."