Go Away

I lay in his arms, at peace for the first time in a very long time. I hold him tightly as my body is entwined in his. I could stay like this forever.

"Babe, It's getting close to the time," Zero says.

"No! I don't want to hear it. I don't want to let go." I answer.

"I know but you have too." Zero states.

"No, I really don't want to, I will never be happy there without you. No matter what your plan is with Ichiru, he isn't you." I shout, holding him closer as tears just flood my face.

"Please don't cry like this," Zero says wiping my tears away as he caresses my cheek and kisses my lips.

"You will be happy once you let go of this, things will get better. Don't think of it as betraying me, think of it as doing my will." Zero adds.

"I don't want to return. I can't leave you. I don't want to leave you!" I shout.

My heart hurts seeing her like this, I don't want you to leave either, I just can't tell you that. I have to send you back, to give you a life. I see more than ever how much you love me, how you felt about me, the way I felt about Yuki and it makes me Crumble. I had a woman that loved me, only me. Look what I have done to you? What I have turned you into? All the pain, you are going through because of me. What Have I done?

"You need to keep in mind we will be together again, just not now. You have our babies to raise, they need you." Zero says. Trying to calm me down.

I sit in this bed holding her tight, trying to talk to her and tell her how much she is needed and wanted in this world, hoping she hears me, and it pulls her back to me. I just hope that he doesn't have such a stronghold, she stays. I don't know what I would do if she did.

"Alexa come home, I love you. I need you. So does the babies, you need to see this. Let him GO" Ichiru cries.

"What is that sound?" I ask.

"It's Ichiru, his love for you is trying to pull you back to him. He loves you fully, and can't bare to lose you." Zero says.

"But I can't bare to lose you. I don't want to let go Zero, please." I reply with tears still streaming down my face.

"I am with you always, I promise you. I live through our children. Go and live the life you need to, Please." Zero answers.

I kiss him deeply as my arms wrap even closer around his neck. I know I need to return but the way I feel at this moment I don't want to. I want to stay here with him.

"Alexa hear me, come home, please. Don't leave me." Ichiru says.

I don't let go of Zero, I can't my arms stay around him, with my head on his shoulder, his arms around me.

"Alexa damn it! I won't let you do this. He isn't worth it. Remember what he did with Yuki?? Remember him going to that damn hotel and how you hurt?! I know you do! COME back." Ichiru shouts shaking my body in his arms.

"Zero I love you," I say even though I am hearing Ichiru's rant.

"I love you too babe, he is right though." Zero answers sadly.

"ALEXA!!" Ichiru screams louder shaking me harder.

My eyes close filled with tears, my heart filled with sadness and my mind filled with confusion. I open my eyes, feeling different, I am still being held, I just look up and it's not Zero, It's Ichiru. I just start to Sob not able to control my emotions. He pulled me back, I am back in this world, I left Zero.

Well, Well, My dear little brother Ichiru, you were strong enough to take her back. You are nothing like you were in the Anime, you were the stronger brother here after all. She didn't let go of me, and you knew she wouldn't. You fought for her, and it was strong enough to push her back. I knew your love for her was strong. I knew I left her in good hands. Once she lets go of the past, you will get your wish. I know she will hurt for me, as I hurt for her but it is better this way. I feel lost, and empty without her, but I know I have to push through it.

"Why did you bring me back here?" I shout.

"Because this is where you need to be! Here with me and your children. He had his chance, why would you let him take your life? He did that once, it was enough!" Ichiru says holding me tightly.

"I didn't want to leave," I state crying harder.

"You feel that way now, but you won't. Just Trust in me." Ichiru answers.

I see she is so hurt by this, what did you do brother? This wasn't making things better, just worse. She was moving along and now you set her back even more! YOu love her so you say, yet you hurt her every time. You make me sick at times. You knew by her seeing you again it would set her back. You know how she really feels about you. Sometimes I just don't understand you. She is falling apart in my arms, her cries are deep sobs. She is holding on to me for dear life, Do you like this? I know I don't. I want to wash away all her pain, and I can't. Even when I try, your shadow hangs over us. GO AWAY, BROTHER! If you really want her life to be happy, Just Go away!