FAMILY HONOUR

It was a Sunday early morning, hearing loud noises from the Hostel corridor, I came out of my room and learnt to my shock and surprise our classmate Mohan was found dead in his room, obviously committed suicide. An empty arsenic bottle and a suicide note found besides the bed.

He hails from a wealthy rich landlord family, the only son of his parents and doing well in studies. He married six months earlier Madhusmita. No one could imagine plausible reasons for his suicide. The Warden informed the Police and the body was sent for Postmortem.

His parents arrived the following morning from their native place. All of us were in the Hostel Common room when Mohan's parents arrived. The moment, they got down I went near Mohan's mother Padmavathy and took her hands into mine. She instantly leaned on to me as I put my hands on her shoulders. Mohan's father accompanied by the Warden and some of our friends went to the hospital to complete the formalities and take his son's body to their native village.

I being Mohan's close friend, I stayed back to take care of grieving mother Padmavathy. I took her to the Guest room situated on top floor. She was obviously exhausted and tired. I requested her to take bath and she went to the bathroom. I went out and brought breakfast and coffee in a thermos for both of us from hostel Mess.

She was looking refreshed after having bath and changed into a fresh thin georgette sari.

I said, 'Amma, you must be starving since yesterday, have some breakfast'

She said, 'No Shiva, I am not hungry. Please go ahead and have your breakfast'

I said, 'Let us have some coffee at least.' On my insistence, she sipped a cup of coffee.

I told her if she wanted to take some rest, I would leave her alone.

She said pleadingly taking my hand, 'don't leave me please. I want you to be with me'

'I will not leave you Amma, I will be with you.' I said and sat on the sofa.

She was standing in front of full-length mirror. Sitting on the sofa, I could see both her back and front, her huge voluminous bouncing breasts hung heavily from her chest moving as she lifted both her hands to remove hairpins from hair bun. She raised her hands, inserted fingers into hair bun, removed hair pins, lifted up and flaunted her hair to loosen further. Her long thick luxurious lustrous wavy oily smooth silky soft shining hair cascaded down reaching mid thighs. She combed her hair slowly and carefully to disentangle her hair. She combed hair backwards from forehead, parted her hair perfectly and neatly in the middle and put two equal parts onto the front over both the shoulders. She combed uniformly thick voluminous long thick hair until the perfectly trimmed ends. It was a time a consuming task and took long time to disentangle and comb her thick voluminous hair. I was captivated and fascinated watching her comb oily long uniformly thick jet-black luxurious lustrous voluminous smooth shining silky wavy hair. I wanted to comb her long hair but restrained to volunteer for the fear of being rebuked. She tossed her hair back and combed downwards. Her hair spread wide covering her entire back reaching mid thighs.

It was a visual feast to me watching her back and her front image in the mirror watching the fluid moments of her huge heavy firm hung bouncing breasts, curvaceous lean taut hourglass body and the fluid movements of her beautiful hands while she was combing her hair. She arranged her hair with deft hands covering her ears and left loose till the hem of the wide deep very low cut blouse and skillfully arranged by making loops with hands into a neat loose big beautiful bun without hair pins resting on her back.

I watched the moments of her beautiful loose big hair bun, her curvaceous hourglass shaped body draped in a flowing thin transparent chiffon plain sari with plain border, pleats tucked neatly much below the deep navel, taut belly, and the narrow waist widened as it went down to wide huge bouncing hips. The sari pallu open along her shoulder as well as arm highlighting her top heavy breasts and hour glass figure. The shape and contours of her top-heavy big extra-large huge firm swinging bouncing breasts, proportionately large areola and long nipples were visible through her thin matching color blouse and bra in the mirror. Her breasts looked from the side view like mountains with firm erect large brown nipples.

At that moment, I remembered her beautiful exuberant confident smiling happy and joyous sexy sizzling image exuding and flaunting her beauty and feminine sexuality during her son's wedding ceremonies. She was like a Beauty Queen. She was wearing rich pure silk gold Zari border silk saris low hip and backless blouse. She was adorned with elaborate heavy gold and diamond jewelry from head to toe, showing off her beautiful curvaceous hour glass sexy sizzling sensuous body. Her wide expressive large eyes kajal lined, top heavy extra-large big bouncing conical huge firm voluminous provocatively swinging mountainous full breasts with firm large erect nipples extending out of lean frame, thin taut lean midriff, jasmine flower threads adorned thick silky thigh length long braid.

She was undoubtedly a beautiful and sexy sensuous woman exuding feminine grace, epitome of sensuality, the height of prime sexuality and crescent linger of explicit womanhood.

I recalled her actively encouraging engaging indulgent flirting conversations, her bewitchingly beautiful and inviting smiles, her deep husky sexy voice, her invigorative intoxicating body scent mixed with aroma of jasmine flowers in her braid, the unmistakable infatuation, mutual fatal attraction and love at first sight, and the longing desire to spend time with each other. I felt bit surprised at myself having such thoughts about her at that juncture. She was a grieving mother. I looked into her eyes with admiration, love, lust, compassion, empathy and desire.

She sat on the sofa, adjusting her sari pleats and pallu neatly. She was calm but her large sorrowful expressive eyes revealed showed the agony and grief.

She asked 'when did it really happen?'

Even before I replied, she started crying, stream of tears rolling down continuously on her cheeks making her sari pallu wet.

I said, 'Amma, I can understand the pain and agony you must be going through ever since you heard the news. I have so many fond memories of him hanging out and but most of all we remember the beautiful days we spent. I talked about some memories and the good times I shared with Mohan. I said, 'he became my closest friend in the college and I miss him very much.'

She was crying and said, 'He is a nice boy. he is very sensitive too. He told me many a time that you are his best friend. Did he not share even with you any of his problems or feelings that led him to take such a drastic decision to end his life?'

I said, 'No, had I known the reasons or had any slightest inclination, I would have definitely helped him in whatever the way I can. He did not tell me about his problems. It is a mystery to all of us and I cannot see any problems which could not have been solved.'

She was restless and continuously crying. She got up from the sofa walked to the window looking out. I went near her, standing beside her.

She said, 'I wish he could have told me, shared his thoughts and feelings, his problems, inhibitions and fears to me, confessed to me whatever his problems were. I could have helped him, comforted him, and counseled him to overcome and solve his problems whatever they were. I would have done anything he wants. I brought him up with so much love and care and we provided everything he wanted. He has everything, property, money, social status, good education and so much life ahead to enjoy with his beautiful wife. What more a young man wants from life?

'Shiva, Did he have any issues academically or otherwise,' she asked.

I said, 'No, Amma, no issues I am aware of, actually he was good in academics. I agree with you that he should have told you about his problems and come to you for advice. You could have helped him. Who can understand him better than his own loving, caring and giving mother?'

It seems my statement triggered agony and she continued to cry, tears rolling down her cheeks, she said, 'who else can understand him better than me? I should have helped him, but I wonder how I could have helped him, unless he tells me. Why did he not come to me?'

Not knowing and not having any clue how to console a crying, grieving and mourning mother, to comfort and to console her, placing my hand on her shoulders wiped tears from her cheeks. She got up and instantly leaned on to my chest. I hugged her and put my hand on her head stroking to soothe her and to show empathy as a gesture of sharing her agony and thought 'let her cry out.'

I stroked, fondled and caressed her hair and the back of head affectionately and lovingly. She hugged me tightly, an intimate hug, her hands encircling, enveloping and reaching fully around me. She leaned forward, wrapped her arms around me. The grasp was soft and gentle yet firm. Impulsively, my fingers slipped into her huge big hair bun and caressed her silky hair and nape affectionately hoping that my gesture would comfort and relieve her stress and tension.

While she was hugging me tightly, I loosened and unfastened loops of her hair bun and her hair cascaded down like a waterfall, spread wide and covering her entire back reaching mid thighs. I ran my fingers through her thick silky hair downwards along the length of her hair, feeling the oily silky smooth texture and softness. Feeling her beautiful silky smooth long hair, and smelling aphrodisiac erotic natural scent of her body aroma and her huge firm breasts pressing against mine sent electric waves though me.

"Her huge heavy breasts hung from lean chest before her, offering me a different view of them. They were not the spheres they normally seemed. Suspended from her chest, they were more like slightly elliptical inverted domes, capped with the jutting of her big, hard nipples and their surrounding abundant areolas. The sight of her breasts made me want to hold them in my hands, as if to weigh her big heavy voluminous, full, fleshy breasts. The slope of one breast seen from the side in profile was triangular shape with a circular base, from which her large long extended nipple projected. Her soft breasts flattened between us as she embraced me tightly. I loved the feel of their buoyant fullness and their satin smooth touch, the inward curving slopes of her breasts which felt like the sweep of satin.

I continued running my fingers through thick strands of her oily smooth wavy hair, while she was hugging me tightly, an intimate whole body touching hug. I cuddled her tightly, closely and intimately, watching her back fully covered with her beautiful thigh-length hair, cupped her big arse cheeks with my hands pressing and squeezing.

Padmavathy's hair is jet black, mid thigh length long, lustrous, uniformly thick, lustrous, voluminous, oily, smooth, silky, soft and shining. I was enjoying the feel of her oily sexy long hair immensely. She did not object and did not pull herself away. I continued stroking her head and gradually her crying reduced to sobs.

We were entwined, entangled and interlocked in an intimate and tight embrace. The hugging mutually became more alluring, coaxing, engaging, engrossing, encompassing, involving, indulging, intimate, intense, inciting, invoking, invigorative, seeking, sensuous and feeling each other's body.

My fingers ran through combing her uniformly thick oily voluminous thigh length hair disentangling from head to the perfectly trimmed ends. Her hair was uniformly bewitchingly tantalizingly thick and voluminous until the ends reaching mid thighs, a rare phenomenon. Her extra-large voluptuous heavy huge firm soft hanging pendulous mountainous and conical breasts were pressing against my chest.

Every part of her whole body was closely touching and pressing mine sending electric waves through my nerves. We were completely entangled, entwined, encircled, enjoined and enticingly enveloped in each other's arms, as if our two bodies were trying to unite with each other and become one. I could smell her distinctive erotic feminine body aroma. The effect was a sudden fullness in my cock and its unwitting rise, touching and pressing her mound. Her pressure against me did have the effect of pushing her breasts against her open neckline of her deep low cut blouse giving me a delightful view. My fully painfully erect, rigid, turgid, throbbing and pulsating long thick cock was pressing her mound thorough my lungi. I felt awkward, since I was not wearing underwear. My blood ran faster in my veins into my cock. I hugged her more closely and tightly moving my cock forward and pressing against her mound while cupping and pressing her arse cheeks with my hands towards me.

I could see that she was obviously excited in our intimate indulging and tight erotic embrace. She did not try to wriggle out or move away as I expected. I was afraid that she may chide me, since I was sure she felt my hard cock pressing against her. Instead she moved herself forward even more closely pressing herself towards me, her whole body touching mine indicating her eagerness. I was delighted to feel the heat and pressure of her soft sensuous body. I pressed my hands on her hips bringing her more closely. Simultaneously, She was pushing her backside intentionally towards me more closely and her heavy breasts were pressing against me in the front. Our arms were encircling each other tightly. I could hear her breathe heavily, feel her heart beat faster, and smell her invigorative distinct erotic exciting exotic enticing body aroma. I looked at her back. She was undoubtedly thrusting herself against my hard cock gyrating and rubbing her mound. I cupped her soft big inverted pot shaped round fat soft arse cheeks with my hands pressing, squeezing and pushing further towards me, while my hard cock pressing hard against her mound.

She was holding me tight, she does not want to leave as if she was so enthralled and in love with me and she doesn't ever want to let go and was too afraid to express with words. Her tight full body hugging full chest to chest and hip to hip contact indicated a different level of intimacy, need and desire.

I pressed my painfully erect hard throbbing cock against her mound like I was already deep inside her. She was being overwhelmed by the speed and force with which I was grinding against her mound and she was visibly excited and groaning.

Her clenched hands were gripping me tightly and fingernails were digging into my back. The softness of her thick long silky hair touching my hands further aroused my basic instinct, banal, carnal, irresistible and uncontrollable physical desire. For a moment, I thought it was indecent and improper having sexual thoughts and desire for her at that moment. But her eager response feeling my cock against her, gyrating her mound alleviated my doubts and prompted me go further.

My hands pressing her soft hips travelled slowly and gently upwards on her back. Her sari pallu already dropped to the floor, I ran my hand upwards, touched her shoulder with the tips of my fingers, placed my hands on the back of her shoulders, and stroked them downward with a bit more force. I also ran one finger along her shoulder. I used both my hands to push firmly into the area above her shoulder blades kneading out some of the tension in her body. Her hands were on my back gripping and digging.

I took her beautiful face in my hands, stroked her cheek, her ear, chin and the side of her face along the jaw line with my fingers. I stroked the back of her head, slowly massaged her scalp, running fingers through her thick hair, brushed the strands of hair away from her eyes as I made eye contact, leading her to want something more. I liked the feel of stroking her oily long thick luxurious lustrous smooth shining silky jet-black hair. I tucked some strands of her hair behind her both ears to give her ears an extra caress.

Padma felt my callused hands, and the sinewy muscles leading up to broad shoulders. When Padma inhaled my rich natural sweat scent Androstenol singed her senses and slid over her bare skin like a powerful aphrodisiac.

I cupped her face in my hands gently with love, desire and empathy. I wanted to love, comfort, possess, own, make love and devour her. I could see in her wide expressive eyes pleading desire to be taken, to be owned, to become united, to be filled, an unmistakable urgent need. It was an uncontrollable, irresistible and intense desire. Her large expressive eyes wide open looking into my eyes were inviting me.

Impulsively, I kissed on her forehead, eyes, eyelids and cheeks. She was moving her face conveniently to receive as I kissed, licked, and nibbled lovingly, delicately, slowly and passionately all over her neck, cheeks and face. I licked and nibbled at her earlobes while my fingers caressed at the back of earlobes. I kissed her earlobes, the sides of her ear, and the area behind her ears gently. I stroked her ears as I continued to kiss and also brushed my lips along and behind her ears and nibbled her earlobes taking into my mouth. I kissed her chin and nose.

I lovingly stroked the sides of her neck while kissing, tossed her hair back so that I can caress her neck a bit more by running the sides of my fingers up and down her neck down to the base of her shoulder and all the way up to her earlobe. She was eagerly enthusiastically accepting and receiving my sensuous loving licking kisses moving and turning her face closely and conveniently to receive as I kissed each and every inch of her fore head, her eye lids, cheeks, chin, neck, shoulders and all over her face. I ran a finger on her juicy soft thick lips and holding her lower lip gave her a soft kiss, paused to caress her lips by holding the kiss for a few seconds. I ran tip of my tongue on her thick full beautiful pouting wet juicy soft top and bottom lips. Finally, I ran my tongue between her wet juicy thick pouting inviting lips forcing her mouth to open.

She opened her mouth fully inviting and taking as my tongue slipped into hers. My tongue explored her mouth, touching her inner cheeks, her tongue and deep into her throat. Her arms snaked around me tightly and our tongues caressed each other and she tasted my tongue. She took my lower lip into her mouth and started sucking, chewing and biting digging her teeth, all the time pressing herself against me. She was biting and chewing my lips till bleeding. She sucked and chewed on my lower lip for a long time. In turn, I took her lower and upper lip one after another alternatively chewing and sucking them gently.

Our tongues entwined, exploring and sucking hungrily each other alternatively. Her tongue attacked my mouth, probing my tongue, teeth and gums. Our bodies were pressing at each other. Our hearts beating faster, blood running through veins faster and faster at high speed. We kissed on for long time, endless with small gaps for taking breath. I could feel her long fingernails digging on my back. I can smell her body aroma, an exotic body odor of passion, sweetness and desire. It was if we both want to drink nectar from each other's mouth. Her hands were around me encircling and clutching tightly. Her fingers digging into my back. We kissed each other unmindful of the time and circumstances for a long time taking turns.

It was obvious that our Kissing relieved her stress and significantly dropped in Cortisol hormone (women who showed a decrease in Cortisol had higher scores of sexual

functioning in the domains of sexual arousal, desire, and satisfaction). The levels of her love hormone - Oxytocin sky rocketed and created feelings of trust, empathy, pleasure, and emotional bonding.

Her sucking of my saliva passed my testosterone hormone to activate her sex desire to the peaks. Our kissing stimulated nerve endings on our lips which sparked release of dopamine, a neurotransmitter in the brain associated with pleasure and feeling of rewarded which made us want to kiss for a long time. Endorphins and Phenyl ethylamine levels also increased during the kissing working as an aphrodite. Our adrenal system got excited releasing adrenaline and noradrenaline making our whole body into an excited, revved up state, our heart rate increased. Blood rushed away from the stomach to our muscles and our sexual organs. Pheromones released extensively when we kissed and we can sense them with our nose and mouth and was able to detect that we were aroused and we are ready for the action.

The long arduous kissing was not enough for both of us and we want to have more of each other. The kissing, intimate indulging, hugging and cuddling ignited fire in both of us, our hearts beating faster pumping blood into each every minuscule part of the body and mind. The mutual sexual desire is mounting to unbearable and uncontrollable heights.

The signs of sexual arousal in her was obvious. Her cunt juices started flowing out profusely, her cunt lips and clitoris swollen and engorged.

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I continued to french kiss her possessively and with all the love that I could muster. With her lips and hands and hair and our bodies pressed together in the most intricate and intimate manner, I wouldn't even dare to stop. I wanted to be there with my arm cupping her cheeks sometimes briefly pulling her hair sometimes pushing her to the very edge and she was being absolutely ravishingly submissive and receiving and reciprocating forcefully.

We had been kissing for seconds, minutes, hours - I could not tell. I just wanted this to never end. I was in the kiss so much so that I wasn't even allowing space for her to moan with delight. It was apparent that every part of her body was tingling with the electric buzz of love, want, lust...Her lips were wet, beautifully full and supple and slick with saliva and inside our mouth it was all tongue and teeth. She moaned and tried to call out my name but I kissed that away just like I wanted to kiss every other thought that culminated in her mind right now. I wanted to break every possible barrier and inhibition between us. I wanted to burn every rope which comes with a knot between us. I wanted to cover all the distance that took me to Padma's very being at that moment and as if by kissing her harder she was giving me the same access to her soul. For her, there was nothing.. Nothing in this whole world.. just Shiva, his lips, his tongue and his hands, her needs, her desires, her happiness, and her urgent need for love, to be taken by him, to take him into her and togetherness. Padma's muscle tension increased, Heart rate quickened and breathing is accelerated. Her skin became flushed and her breast nipples become hardened or erect.

Our kissing was a sensory explosion of mutual body scent emitting subtle chemical attractants that intensified our arousal. The kiss sent shock waves throughout our bodies that increased blood flow resulting in her stiffened nipples, fluttery stomach and tingling genitals. Her adrenal glands unleashed adrenaline resulting in pounding heart, heavy breathing, and sweaty palms. The physical thrill prompted our brains to cue up dopamine, a neurotransmitter associated with pleasure. At the same time, other parts of her brain are shutting down negative emotions. Our lip locking have prompted her pituitary gland to release Oxytocin, the bonding hormone. forming an emotional attachment reducing her tension and hike happiness. It was obvious that the intimate, involving, indulging embrace, cuddling and long sucking kiss relieved her pain and agony in her mind, but her body excited with utmost desire was seeking more involved togetherness and union. The physiological need and desire mounted to uncontrollable heights.

My overpowering maleness made her submit herself to me. Her whole body was aching with irresistible, unbearable and uncontrollable desire. She became aroused and excited beyond control, the blood running fast, her nerves electrified and tensed, her pulse rate and breathing quickened. Her heavy huge breasts became painfully heavier and swollen, areola expanded and enlarged, her nipples became stiff, hard and jutting to come out of the bra and blouse straining at seams. Her clit swollen, engorged and stiff, and her soft cunt lips enlarged and opened like flower petals. Cunt juice from her pussy was overflowing and running down between her thighs. She could not think of anything else except that her hungry burning insatiable desire to be quenched. She was like a simmering volcano with hot lava ready to explode. A throbbing from her pelvis overwhelmed her body. She could not bear the urge. She wants my cock inside her cunt. She wants to be fucked. She wants her cunt opened, filled and fucked. She was ready and waiting for me to initiate.

There was no need for words. The intimate embrace, kissing and togetherness, silent unspoken psychological, emotional physiological need and uncontrollable physical desire well communicated through her eyes and body response conveyed me beyond any doubt that she needs to be thoroughly fucked.

I lifted her by slipping a hand under her arm and around her back, leaned over her placed my other arm behind her knees and scooped her up into my arms. She put her hands around my neck holding on to me, buried her face on my shoulder and groaned. I carried her to the bed room, dragging her sari pallu, illuminated by soft sunlight diffused through white curtains and lowered her on to the white bed sheet that covered the bed.

Padma lay down on the edge of the bed, her feet touching the floor and her hair spread wide on the bed. I could see her flawless blemish less glowing smooth skin, full extra-large voluminous conical mountainous big breasts with large dark areolas and hardened jutting upright erect big nipples, her mound of deep navel, the rise and fall of her abdomen.

Lying back down on the bed, her partially nude erotic body revealed in the soft diffused light that came through the window curtains. Her extra-large huge mountainous breasts had proportionately large conical areolas with big long elongated and stiffened nipples that pointed out from the considerable mound of her firm tits. I sat next to her, cupping, stroking and feeling her huge voluminous firm pendulous conical extra-large breasts. I unhooked and removed her blouse and bra as she lifted her hands up willingly to ease them. Her naked heavy breasts were firm; big enlarged areola and engorged nipples were long stiff and jutting out. I bent down to kiss her big mountainous breasts. I nibbled and stroked her erect engorged stiff nipples. My hand sipped through below her sari and petticoat feeling her big thunderous thick fleshy soft thighs. Her blood flow to her cunt increased, clitoris and labia swollen and her vaginal lubrication began. Her breasts become fuller and the vaginal walls begin to swell. Her muscle spasms in the feet, face, and hands are clearly visible.

Her heavy breasts became heavier and full almost painful. She sat upright on the bed leaning over me so that her breast hangs an inch above my face, offering the jutting nipple, carried her breast to my mouth in the gesture of a nursing mother, the dark engorged jutting long nipple of her breast.

Leaning over me so her breast hangs an inch above my face, offering the nipple. Suddenly, the entire world is nipple-shaped. It hung there in space for me to kiss. I sucked it, nuzzling it gently with my teeth. The nipple grew larger and firmer in my mouth. She withdrew it, and replaced it with the other. It too, swollen to my sucking.

In the movement, she made by taking her two hands to bring it towards my mouth, a drop of milk appeared at the extremity. I licked it eagerly, seizing that heavy breast in my mouth like a juicy fruit. I suckled in a greedy and regular way. I passed both my arms around her waist and I sucked on with slow sips of her breast milky juice with a movement of the neck as a breast fed child.

I sucked on her big brown heavy engorged hard and jutting nipple, while stroking the other and squeezing it. I kept on sucking like a hungry baby sucking milk from mother's breast while her hand was below my head holding it like a feeding mother breastfeeding her baby son. She was like nursing mother, breasts heavy with full of milk, aching painfully and wanted to feed her hungry baby son, to relieve unbearable ache caused by overflowing milk. She wants her breasts to be sucked and emptied. Her mother instinct triggered hormones in her mind and her body was responding with uncontrollable need to breastfeed and her breasts to be sucked and emptied.

I sucked on her jutting nipple while caressing her breast. I could feel milk coming out of her breasts. I sucked on more intensely and could taste her milky breast juices till the flow stopped.

Suddenly she said, "That's enough for this one, take the other now."

I took the other. She had placed her hands on the back of me, and she was breathing forcefully now. I sucked milky juice drop by drop coming into my mouth. I was surprised that milky juices coming out from her breasts and happily sucked on.

I could sense her immense uncontrollable desire and need to breastfeed me. I continued sucking her breast milk juices from both the breasts alternatively. I was surprised that she was having such intense reflexes that her breasts became so big and heavy and her nipples grew erect, enormously swollen and oozing out milky juices. She was actually lactating. She moaned with great relief and pleasure as I sucked on and emptied her breasts and massaged her breasts and nipples.

She felt relieved after her heavy breasts were emptied by sucking her breast milk. But her sexual desire further mounted to greater peaks. She was eager to submit and surrender herself and ready to be taken and fucked.

Yanking off my shirt and lungi I undressed completely. She was obviously surprised, shocked and fascinated by seeing the enormous size of my erect long thick rigid big pulsating monstrous young and virile cock as I walked towards her flaunting my huge cock proudly. Padma was shocked by the size of my big cock. It is so long, thick and meaty. She was amazed and terrified, her eyes wide expressing surprise and eyebrows rose seeing the enormous size of my monstrous cock in surprise and disbelief. Her surprise is not unexpected to me.

My monstrous gigantic cock is big in length and thickness, and the knob is even bigger and menacing. I am well aware of women's reaction of shock and surprise when they see the size of my huge nine inch long five inch thick monstrous cock with menacingly bigger knob. I know women love to feel, to suck and get thoroughly fucked by big long thick cock. The feel of such big cock stretching and expanding a woman's cunt and filling deep to the bottom, rubbing her G-spot makes a woman reach vaginal whole body orgasm and achieve multiple endless ecstatic continues orgasms while fucking.

It's no secret that women tend to place more importance in penis girth and length. The clitoris, small external structure that is packed with nerve endings, is actually a very large internal network of erectile tissue that responds to sexual arousal. The only part that is external is the glands clitoris, The clitoris is mostly internal and covers almost the entire pelvic floor. The more extensive internal structure of the clitoris explains the fascination with thickness of an erection. Beyond the glans, the clitoris extends back and inward like an inverted "V" on each side of the vaginal opening. Next to those 'legs' are vestibular bulbs, one on each side of vaginal opening. These are almond-shaped areas of erectile tissue - similar to the corpus spongiosum in men - that fill with blood during arousal becoming firm and pushing outward on the labia. There are also areas of erectile tissue surrounding the urethra (just in front of the vaginal opening) and underneath the area of the perineum (between the vaginal opening and the anus). There is pleasure in her erectile tissue when there is pressure against it.

During sexual arousal, all of this erectile tissue fills with blood to form a cuff around the entire vaginal opening. When there is vaginal penetration, a woman will feel pressure against all of this erectile tissue, resulting in a pleasurable sensation. Perhaps the best comparison is the feeling that a man has when he squeezes his erection in his hand, creating pressure against the erectile tissue. Not only is this feeling delicious all on its own, but it also that pressure also serves to create a little tugging and pulling on the entire clitoral structure when there is movement in and out of the vagina. This is a major source of stimulation for women during vaginal intercourse since the clitoris is blessed with so many nerve endings! Learning how to create the sense of pressure can give a woman a great deal of pleasure.

It's not difficult to see why women enjoy the sensation of girth during penetration. Men can give their female partner maximum stimulation during intercourse using the shaft of their erection to rub against the sides of the vaginal opening, creating the sensation of more thickness. Stimulation of the entire clitoral structure from penetration is the main way that women are able to reach vaginal orgasms when not directly touching the head of the clit.

I stood there in front of her showing my cock.

'Oh my God, You are gigantic. Your cock is like Shiva lingam,' she said.

She took my rigid long thick erect hard and turgid cock into her hands with awe feeling it and held it in both of her fists. She was able to contain only part of its length and thickness. It was the first time in her life to see and hold such a big long thick monstrous enormous sized cock with rock hardness. Her eyes opened wide with surprise. She heard women gossiping about men's big cock in her village, but she never even heard a man can have such a big cock. She never imagined a man can have such a big cock. She remembered the sculptures on the temples and also thought of Shiva lingam. She felt my cock and squeezed. It was like a long thick hard rod with very big menacing knob. She was overwhelmed to hold such a massive monstrous long thick cock in her hands. She held the knob in the palm of one hand and caressed it with her fingers of other hand slightly squeezing the knob.

She was afraid, terrified and very much apprehensive whether she could take all this meaty enormous cock in her cunt. She could not help but compare the enormous size of the cock she was holding with that of her husband's timid small soft lifeless cock. She was holding and stroking my cock in her hands. Her hands running along the shaft lovingly and ran her index finger nail on my bigger pink knob. She took hold of my scrotum, feeling the balls and then her fingers reached encircling the big knob of my cock as if to measure. She was afraid that her cunt may not be able to take this monstrous cock with its even menacingly bigger knob and her cunt my get torn and ripped apart. Yet, she was excited with anticipation and want to be fucked by such a massive cock. She thought it is as big as horse's cock.

Though she was afraid, she wants my big monstrous cock to open and fill her cunt. She was excited, her cunt petals enlarged, clitoris became stiff and hard, and her cunt juices started overflowing with excitement and expectation. Excited by the arousal she sucked in a tight breath, the scent of her arousal and body language telling me just how needy she was to get fucked. She kissed the knob and ran over her tongue over the knob. 'Oh, my god, Shiva, I cannot wait, Please do it. Come into me. I want your lingam inside me,' she said holding and stroking my cock.

I took off her sari and petticoat as she lifted her big wide ass to ease out. She was naked and spread her legs and thighs wide apart. Her beautiful thick wet juicy cunt flower and engorged glittering stiff big clit were inviting. She has beautiful thick cunt lips, erect big clitoris and long triangle of thick black soft pubic hair.

She put her hand and covered on her cunt. I took her hand off, bent over her between her fat fleshy thighs and rubbed my cock on her wet cunt lips and massaged her clitoris, gently. I Opened her cunt lips with my hands, slowly and firmly entered into her cunt opening going in deeper and deeper between the clinging lips of the vulva. My cock entered tightly, opening and widening her soft cunt walls.When my cock entered her, she gasped. It was the first time in her life she had ever experienced what it was like to feel a cock opening her cunt and stretching her cunt and full from the inside her cunt. Despite her cunt filled with juice it was painful for her. The truth was that she was definitely turned on, and her cunt overflowing with juices, the size of my cock did hurt her. She cried in pain and said, 'You are hurting me, Please be gentle.'

My thick cock stretched her vagina to the utmost limits. In the next few attempts my cock slowly inch by inch got into her touching the bottom of her cunt.

I kept my cock still without moving. Her cunt was completely filled with my cock. She never felt that way with her husband's small timid cock. She could feel my cock filling inside her cunt stretching and expanding. It was a surprise for her that my big long thick enormous cock filled her cunt to the bottom and still some length of it is outside her vagina. Her hand was on my cock which remained outside. She raised her bottom slightly to take more of my cock into her cunt. Her cunt muscles were gripping my cock tightly like a fist. It was obvious that she never had such an experience of her cunt filled by a big cock. She was tightly encircling and gripping my cock as if she wanted to take all of me into her. I looked into her eyes. She wants more. Her cunt muscles opened up, stretched by the enormous size of my thick long cock, and her hands on my hips were pressing me more into her. I took her breasts into my hands fondling them. It was a moment of unison, of our bodies and souls.

"It feels like your cock split me in two. I feel your cock in my throat!" she stammered. She slowly turned to look in the mirror across from the bed behind her. What she saw horrified her. Her cunt was stretched wide open by my huge cock. There was at least half of my cock still out of her cunt. 'Oh, God I feel like I'm a virgin getting fucked. "It's so big...do you know how much your stretching me?" she whispered.

I looked down in front of me. The juice had traveled down my cock and was staining the sheets.

I looked into her eyes keeping my cock still to enjoy the feeling, I was not in a hurry. I wanted her to feel and enjoy enormous size of my cock. Slowly I slid back and forth. 'I want to fill you and fuck you Amma,' I took my cock out to the knob and entered her again to the bottom.

Oh my God, Shiva, You are tearing me apart.

I settled down to a steady, relentless rhythm, fucking her straight and hard.

She said, 'fuck me, deeper, more and more. She urged me as my cock was going in and withdrawing to the tip and then sliding into her cunt slowly and steadily. I could feel her cunt muscles opening every time my cock going in deep.

She was moaning, and said, 'Oh, my son, fuck me, fuck your mother, fuck me, my son, fuck me hard. Tear me apart. I need it. I have been waiting and hungry for so long to take your cock. Give it to me all the way in.' She was repeating the words again and again, cooing and crying loud, while moving bottom up to meet each of my strokes. 'Fuck your mother. Fuck me hard,' she said. Her pussy juices were flowing out running down my cock and my balls were soaking wet.

I lifted and placed both her legs on both sides my shoulders, slightly lifted her ass just off the bed, re-entered her cunt and fucked her slowly, steadily and rhythmically deeper and deeper. I whispered, 'Amma, You are a sexy bitch and your cunt is like a heaven, and you need to be fucked by me.' I fucked fast with all my energy digging into her deeper and deeper opening her cunt with each stroke with more and more energetic thrusts. She was making husky and horny sounds, cooing and groaning very loud with pleasure.

Padma, my sweet sexy darling aphrodisiac Amma, you are a cunt. You are a sexy bitchy slut. You are a tramp and whore. I am going to fuck you so hard and rip off your cunt.

'Yeah, son, I am a bitch in heat, I am your slut Amma. You are a mother-fucking son. Fuck me, my son. Fuck your mother. Fill my cunt. I am yours. I am your slut and whore. Your fat cock is so long and big. Fuck me deeper deeper and more and more, rip me off. I have been waiting for you all these years to fill my cunt. 'Fuck me my son' she said huskily.

She was thrusting upwards raising her arse with equal vigor and enthusiasm making erotic sounds. She was like a bitch in heat now. She wanted my cock in her. Our bodies with each stroke were trying to unite with each other, attempting to unite, to become one, to achieve oneness. It was a beautiful unique and ultimate expression of love and desire between man and woman and their souls to become one and achieve oneness.

Her hands around me, her legs spread wide, her cunt inviting and receiving my cock each time. I was digging and rotating my cock in her cunt making it bigger and wider, as a thick iron crowbar rod digging and deepening into rain drenched soft earth, taking my massive hard cock out and sending back with more vigorous force and rotating in circular motion to make her cunt wider and deeper. After few minutes her hips began to rise and fall with me in harmonious perfect rhythm and made undulating circular movements that quickened and heaved, and she began to emit throaty erotic exciting orgasmic sounds. She squirmed and moaned as I pulled almost all of the way out and then thrust back in to hilt with full force again and again rapidly gaining speed.

The rhythm became faster and faster as I placed my hands under her ass cheeks bringing my cock into her cunt deeper thrust to the hilt. As I fucked deeper with more forceful thrusts, digging and rotating in her cunt holding her arse cheeks, she came violently crying a loud as if a simmering volcano erupted, as if an earthquake occurred and shook her, her whole body in frenzied uncontrollable spasms and she dug her finger nails deep into my back scratching wildly drawing out blood. Her orgasm was visible in her reaction of complete abandon, her legs and pussy tightening around me in a squiring movement. She moved back and forth, up and down and wiggled tighter and tighter. She screamed and moaned with absolute pure pleasure and it was more than obvious that she was having a great time. I pumped mindlessly faster and faster deep into her cunt. I kept my cock rooted in her cunt without moving and her cunt muscles gripping, releasing and squeezing my cock like a fist, repeatedly.

I massaged her clitoris slowly until she lifted her hips and came again. Her body was shaking in a frenzied motion sweating profusely. Keeping my cock still in her cunt, I massaged her cunt and clit smoothly and she had three more consecutive endless orgasms. She came as if all her pores opened up and juices coming out of her body crying out loud like a wild animal. Her muscles of her vagina contracted. Her uterus was undergoing rhythmic contraction

I kept on fucking her more and digging into her cum filled cunt. I fucked on with all my energy continuously and finally I was ready.

After long fucking, I could not control anymore and came very big. I said "Amma, Amma, Ammaaaa, as I ejaculated thick loads of sperm into her cunt, pouring my thick hot sperm filling her cunt. Suddenly her fingers dug into my shoulders and she was ready again. She was orgasmic phase again and experienced multiple orgasms Finally we came together in unison and in a harmonious motion. She surrendered to orgasm as her entire body contracted and convulsed in frenzied movements. She cried out very loud with joy and her fingernails dug deeper and deeper scratching my back violently, drawing blood profusely. Her fingers dug in deeply drawing blood.

She squeezed all my juices with her cunt contracting muscles. All my thick sperm juices drained to the last drop filling her cunt. I lay with my head between her breasts and her fingers played with my mussed hair. It was an extensively exhaustive intense and exhausting orgasm for both of us. She almost went into a trance. She experienced cervical orgasms which is so different from clitoral orgasm. Her body slowly returned to its normal level of functioning, and swelled and erect body parts returned to their previous size and color and felt a sense of well-being, satisfaction, enhanced intimacy and fatigue and closed her eyes.

When she opened her eyes, I looked into her eyes and saw her blushing. Her blushing, feeling shy at that moment was amazingly beautiful to see. It was the shyness a woman feels naturally, after being fucked thoroughly to orgasm and submitted her body and herself completely to her man. She kissed me all over my face. Her eyes and face were glowing with contentment and satisfaction. She looked at me, with love, devotion and submission and said, 'Oh! God, Shiva, You have shown me heaven. You seeded and filled my cunt with your potent sperm.

I said, 'it was astoundingly beautiful and lovely pleasurable experience for me Amma.'

We lay side by side, cuddling, her face buried on my chest, my hands around her, until our satiated bodies gradually returned to normality.

She saw the scratches and blood marks on my back smothering and said, Did I hurt you? I did not know What I was doing at that time. I was clutching at you not aware that I was scratching you so deep.

I said Yes, Amma. But It was a pleasurable pain. It is Ok. Amma, It seems you have Odaxelagnia.

She asked 'What does it mean?'

Amma, "Odaxelagnia is a paraphilia involving sexual arousal and orgasm through biting, being bitten, and scratching.. Odaxelagnia is considered a mild form of Masochism and sadism.

'Shiva, You made me do it. I could not control and I was lost in abandoned pleasure. My whole body was experiencing violent spasms. I was in space and I had to hold on to you. I have not been fucked like this before.'

Padma, 'When a woman has a tornado of orgasmic frenzy, the sensations she's experiencing, usually for the first time and this volume and duration, makes her feel as if she might burst wide open with sheer pleasure and to prevent that feeling of bursting, she needs to have a release valve, to help her and one of these release valves is biting and scratching. Whenever woman is in this frenzy of orgasmic pleasure, they're not in their right minds, more of their primitive jungle brains and fighting back, clawing, scratching, biting, and snarling, helps them until they learn to relax and enjoy the pleasures rather than fight it. Women can flip back and forth into that primitive jungle brain, in and out of it, most of the time they don't even know when and what they're doing it.'

We have spent long time fucking which relaxed you and become comfortable with me. The orgasm you experienced relieved energy blockage and stress stored in your body. Orgasms are profound opportunities to let go of things like stress, pain, and grief you are holding on to or things that are holding on to you. You have enjoyed it! Your continuous orgasms offered infinite waves of self colliding, partner embracing moments as you melt surrendering again and again.

Amma, you just experienced such an extreme pleasure, a full-body orgasm, the most enjoyable really good extended long and multiple orgasm. I am happy that I could give you such a tornado or tsunami of orgasm to the extent of awakening your hidden Odaxelagnia.

'Shiva, You are so knowledgeable about sex psychology, women's feelings and sexual behavior. You aroused me to uncontrollable desire, made me forget the circumstances, and time, opening me up and fucked me for so long. It was almost one hour since we started and you have been playing with my body and my mind. You are saying that I am a sadist after fucking me for more than half an hour like a wild animal. You filled, stretched, widened and tore my cunt apart. Your cock is so big that filled my cunt and stretched to the extent of tearing me apart. You made me unleash my sexual energy and overcome inhibitions and talk dirty words shamelessly. But I enjoyed it. You are a fucking animal. I have been starved for sexual satisfaction. There was so much pent-up sexual frustration stored in my mind and body. You made me overcome and release all my energies. You drained out all my stored juices. I cannot even walk. Now I need to go to the bathroom to pee.'

Padma, 'I am happy to hear you that I helped you to bring the real woman in you.'

As she walked naked to the bathroom, I watched her bouncing hips moving in rhythm provocatively in harmonious motion and her flowing thigh length cascading loose hair on her back.

Padmavathy is thirty eight years old, tall, slightly dark woman with oily smooth, clear, unblemished and radiant glowing skin, beautiful oval face, high cheekbones, natural arch shaped curvaceous well defined eye brows, large expressive eyes, thick black long natural eyelashes, full wide juicy wide thick pouting lips, long smooth neck and sexy round shoulders, thin long smooth arms, artistic long fingers, pleasant smiling face, perfectly shaped ears, and beautiful nose. She has clearly well defined, angelic, attractive, beautiful, and perfectly symmetrical facial features with ideal golden ratio. Her huge, large, voluminous firm pendulous, mountainous and conical breasts hung from lean chest and big nipples extend out of her slender lean frame made her brazenly top heavy. Her narrow thin taut waist curvaceously spread onto wide bottom and big hemispherical protruding inverted pots-like round hips. Her long, naturally oily, soft, silky, jet-black, lustrous, smooth, shining, wavy, voluminous, bewitchingly beautiful uniformly tantalizingly thick hair reaches her thunderous smooth banana trunk like thighs. Her lissomly curvaceous body firm yet full at the bosom and wide hips and longlegs is erotic. She also has another very unique feature, her belly button is very prominent by the way the flesh in her stomach curves and carves lusciously in a vortex to make way for the jewel, deep hole and wide rim.

Taut & Fit Body Padma has an unusually taut and fit body for a 38 year old. Her stomach is flat and her curves are well defined and taut. Her breasts are large, globular, firm, conical and outstanding. Her arms are long, large yet highly toned, her hips and butt are enormous and yet tight and well controlled. Her thighs and calves are breathtaking from another planet altogether! She has a perfect large pear body with measurements of 34-26-38. Incredible hip size, that is! Also, her bra size is 36D.

She is extremely curvy because her body has incredible definition, with everything being tight, toned, and feminine, with low body fat, narrow waist and wide hips. She looks very much younger than her actual age. She has sweet, melodious, soft husky and sexy voice. Her cunt hair was thick curly and soft. She is every inch a woman, glowing and exuding and flaunting utmost feminine sexuality. It appears that she was at her peak age sexually and matured beautifully like a ripe fruit. She is at the epitome of sexual prime.

She has an admirable, adorable, altruistic, affiancing, amenable, amorous, angelic, appealing, artistic, attractive, beautiful, bewitching, benevolent, breathtaking, caring, charitable, charming, creative, commanding, cooperative, compassionate, considerate, curious, curvaceous, cute, dazzling, delicate, delightful, elegant, empathetic, enchanting, enthralling, enticing, epicurean, erotic, exemplary, exciting, exquisite, exotic, fabulous, fascinating, gentle, glamorous, gorgeous, hedonistic, horny, intelligent, inciting, interesting, inquisitive, invigorative, jubilant, kind, lascivious, lovely, luscious, lusty, luxurious, magnanimous, marvellous, magnificent, munificent, noble, nubile, nurturing, passionate, parsimonious, philanthropic, pleasant, pleasing, proactive, provocative, positive, ravenous, rapacious, rich, sensitive, sensuous, sexy, sensational, submissive, sweet-tempered, stunning, sybaritic, tolerant, and voluptuous personality.

She has feminine looks attenuated by flaunting of perfect curvaceous body and expressive eyes & luscious lips. She has authentic femininity portraying externally. Her femininity expressed in the from effective communication and lifestyle. She was alluring, had something far better, a radiant loveliness, captivating femininity that reminded me of the love goddess. I was awed and inspired by what I saw.

She came out of the bathroom arranging her hair into a loose bun. I watched with admiration, love and possessiveness her naked sensuous and curvaceous body, her huge extra-large full heavy voluminous breasts hung from her chest swinging up and down. I made her sit on my lap naked. She put her hands around my neck and my hands were holding her protectively. She was hugging me, her face buried on my chest and I cuddled her.

I said, Amma, you are a beautiful, sexy and erotic goddess.

She said, You are my God.

When he entered me, it was the first time I had ever experienced what it was like to feel a man from the inside. 'It was the first time in my life I have experienced such beautiful orgasm while fucked. You made it safe enough for me to be my truest sexual form and from that came the flood of euphoria and ecstasy that is a cervical orgasm for a long time almost more than twenty minutes. I had orgasms repeatedly which was entirely new experience for me. My entire being was alive. I had awareness of every molecule in my body. I knew we were in the same place at the same time feeling the same thing and that was it. You have taken me to a state, the closest thing to God I have ever felt. Now I know what it is like being fucked. It was filthy and rough and selfish and it was amazing.

I know it is selfish on my part. Where were you all these years, lover? Why did not you come to me earlier, claim me and fuck me? You should have claimed me long ago. I am your property. I belong to you. I have been waiting for you all these years. Why did you deny me this heavenly pleasure all these years? Ever since you set your eyes on me, during my son's wedding ceremony, your charming seduction invoked and incited my long hidden suppressed dormant desire. This is going to sound crazy, but from the moment you first set eyes on me I haven't been able to stop thinking of and about you. You have occupied my mind and body. I loved you at first sight. And the very first time in my life, I ever felt passionately in love was the moment I saw you. It was a feeling so loving, so tender, so wild, so overwhelming and breath-taking, and all-involving, a feeling I did not know before. The moment I saw you I know that you are the tall handsome man I have been dreaming about since my childhood. It was my dreams come true. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, in your arms as your woman. I experienced the pleasure of submission of myself, surrendering my soul and body to you transcending all limits. Finally I found my man, my Master who owns me.

She laid down keeping her head on my lap, and looking into my eyes with love, devotion and submission. I was fondling her body feeling the smoothness of her skin, caressing her glowing face and lovingly fondling her big breasts.

I asked, 'Amma, how do you feel now? I assume that your grief must have been reduced temporarily.

Shiva, At this moment, I still feel your cock in my cunt. You are calling me Amma now, after fucking me thoroughly for so long time and calling me a bitch, slut, tramp and whore?' she said smilingly. I deserve that because I fit the description of all these words and strangely, I thoroughly enjoyed you calling me such filthy abuse derogatory words.

'Shiva, You ask me 'how do I feel? I experienced orgasm for the first time during fucking. I am fucked thoroughly. I am the luckiest woman on the earth. Finally, I am with you, my master to whom I belong. I need you. You should have claimed me, your property long ago. I have been waiting as a fertile land parched waiting to be ploughed properly deeply, watered and seeded to flourish. Why were you born later than I was? You should have born earlier to me to claim me and fuck me ever since I was a young virgin girl. I feel like a virgin girl fucked for the first time. You should have impregnated me many a time and produced many children. 'Shiva, You filled my heart with love and my cunt with your monstrous cock. You filled the void in me, fulfilled me and gave me such a wonderful unbelievable life time experience, made me forget everything, the pain, the agony, the grief and the sorrow of losing my son. I feel happy. Nothing else matters in this world except you for me now. I experienced pure heavenly pleasure perhaps banal, carnal and animalistic pleasure akin to nirvana. It may be an unpardonable sin to experience such pleasure on this day in the eyes of other people. I do not care even if I go to hell for committing this sin having forbidden sex with you on this day.

I do not care if the whole world calls me an immoral unethical selfish slut. I experienced unimaginable, the ultimate, abandoned uncontrollable blissful pleasure akin to nirvana of highest level, which I never thought even in dreams that such happiness and pleasure is plausible to experience during sex. It is strange we had to meet second time in these circumstances. Would this experience perhaps have been more pleasurable if our mating and fucking happened in otherwise normal circumstances. I think, It is most definitely the pleasure experienced with you now is more intensified because it happened especially today. I do not hesitate to admit such a thought, even if it is called kinky, sexual obsession or abnormal behavior. I am supposed to be crying sitting next to my son's body. Every one expect me to do so. Instead, I enjoyed being thoroughly fucked by you. My mind is filled with pleasure instead of pain. My mind, body and soul is occupied by you, filled by you, owned by you and devoured by you. You have shown me that fucking can be powerful and pleasurable beyond words can express and make me forget grief of losing my son. You not only fucked me to console but also gave me divine pleasure akin to nirvana and moksha. I submitted and surrendered myself to you happily.

People may think I am cruel not feeling sad for losing my son. I am sad that my son did not have such beautiful experience and such heavenly pleasures with his young beautiful and sexy wife. Perhaps he never had such intense pleasure in his life. Do you know, what could be the plausible reason for my son to end his life?

"I don't know, Amma."

Padma said, 'Can you believe that he could not enter his wife's virgin cunt and fuck her the first night and thereafter. She is still a virgin'.

'Is she?' I said surprisingly, I did not think of this possibility.

Shiva, 'Yes. She is now a beautiful, sexy, young and virgin widow. It is the truth that my son did not and could not fuck his wife. It seems that he tried but could not get his cock up and fucked his wife. His inability to fuck his virgin wife must have caused him to take such a drastic decision. He was not like you. I wish he was a man like you with vigor and virility and had such a monstrous cock like yours so big, beautiful, and virile and fucked his wife. I wish you were my son. You would have fucked and deflowered her virgin cunt so thoroughly on the first night and made her pregnant by now'

I said, "Amma If I were your son, I would not have married any other girl," I said.

"Why, Shiva", she asked taking my already erect and hard cock in her hands, stroking it. 'Any girl or woman would be happy to have this beautiful big long thick gigantic and monstrous cock. Even If I were your mother you need a girl to fuck. Your monstrous gigantic cock is erect and ready again. It seems your cock is always ready.

"If you were my mother, why do I need any other girl? I would have married you and fucked you, Amma"

You would have married me, even if I were your own mother? Do you love me and like me so much? Shiva You could have definitely fucked me without marrying me. You need not have to marry a woman to fuck her. Do you like me so much to marry me and make me your wife, she said, toying with her managalsutra. I am fascinated to think you would have tied mangalsutra to me. I am thinking how happy and pleasurable it would have been to be your wife.

Yes, Amma, I said, I have not seen any other girl as beautiful and sexy as you are. You are a beautiful sexy and lovely erotic sex goddess. I would have been happy to have you as my mother and wife.

Shiva, I am very happy, excited, enthralled and thrilled to hear your intense love and desire for me that you would have married me, even if I were your mother. You cannot marry me if I were your own mother. Our Society does not accept such an incestuous taboo marriage. Though it is the greatest utmost unpardonable sin and taboo, you would have fucked me. The society cannot object, if they do not know. I would have enjoyed the utmost sinful taboo and incestuous fucking relationship with you as my son immensely. You would have been my permanent resident stud son and secret lover fucking me daily. We would have been living happily in sin like a husband and wife enjoying secretly. To the society, we would have been loving and caring mother and son living together. If you were my son You would have fucked me from an early age, from the age you could get your cock up to fuck me. I would have been the happiest and luckiest mother fucked by a horny stud son like you. I would have become your kept woman and lifelong secret mistress. I would not have allowed you to marry any other girl. You could have impregnated me and produced many children by now. I would have been the happiest mother nursing your many children, breastfeeding you along with our children as long as possible.

I am curious to know at what age your cock was ready to fuck my dear lover. I envy your mother who had the opportunity to bathe you, clean your cock and kiss you while you were a child and growing up.

'Amma, I do not exactly remember. Ever since my childhood my cock has been ready most probably even at the age of seven or eight. I said, Amma, do you want me to be both your son and lover?'

She said, 'Yes Shiva, why should I allow you to fuck some other girl or woman, if you were my own son? I have every right as a mother to enjoy your youthful energetic virile fucking. I would have been the happiest and luckiest mother to have a handsome stud son with such a monstrous cock as big as horse's cock. I would have been happy to see your cock growing up to become a stud and stallion man with such colossal, huge, humongous, gargantuan, gigantic massive, monstrous cock and be ready to fuck me. I would have been sucking your cock from your young age while giving bath. Why should I allow you to fuck and give to other woman such incredible pleasures?

Shiva, When you saw me first time during the marriage of my son, I remember you looking at me with intense love and burning desire, as if you wanted to fuck me. I was captivated and enamored by your hungry looks. I was besotted, Infatuated, smitten and was madly in love with you. I was bewitched, beguiled, charmed, enchanted, enraptured, enthralled, entranced, fascinated, and love-struck by you. I was head over heels for you. I was under the spell of you, consumed with desire for you. I had wet dreams thinking about you.

Shiva, During my sn's wedding ceremony You were not looking at me as mother, that too your best friend's mother but were looking as if you want to have me, disrobe me, enter me, eat me, devour me and fuck me. I was overwhelmed to see your cock bulge in your pants. You flirted with me. You praised my beauty looking at me from top to bottom, every inch of my body with penetrating eyes. I am curious to know what you saw in me the very first time, elder to you and of your mother's age, to make you want me, desire me and fuck me. Did you think I am an easily available slut and whore.

Padma, 'My first thought when I saw you was that you are a sexy and horny fertile woman who is at her peak sexually. Here is the woman I want to fuck now. I remember our first meeting as if it had happened yesterday. It was fatal attraction, admiration, infatuation, desire and love at first sight. An intense mutual desire communicated between us when I saw you first time in your house. I felt that we have known each other for a long time, perhaps for so many lives. I felt you are mine. You belong to me.'

You were wearing a pure silk red and gold color sari with broad heavy gold zari border. I remember your large kajal lined expressive beautiful inviting eyes looking at me. Your extra-large big huge hung voluminous conical pendulous heavy breasts proudly and visibly extending out of blouse and sari.

Your beautiful long thick jet-black lustrous silky smooth shinning silky hair neatly parted in the middle, arranged in a thigh length braid adorned with gold hairpins on side. Your wide bewitchingly thick braid with neat loops fastened just below your protruding big arse with matching color hair band and left loose reaching mid thighs and adorned with beautifully arranged long jasmine flower threads oscillating and swinging harmoniously with your huge breasts and big arse cheeks provocatively and seductively as you walk.

You were wearing a glittering diamond nose stud, gorgeous gold chain held by a hook at the center parting of the hair with the diamond studded gold pendant falling on the center of the forehead just above the stone studded dark red bindhi. Your beautiful neck adorned with a diamond collar necklace. A diamond pendant on a thick wide gold necklace chain beyond your breasts, a heavy gold rope design mangala sutra, a gold chain with a heart shaped diamond studded pendant was resting in between your breasts. Another gold long multi layered step chain hung on your front up to navel swinging rhythmically as you walk. You were wearing beautiful glittering diamond studded hanging earrings. Two gold ear step chains interlinked in a criss-cross pattern extending to the both sides of hair hooked with precious stone studded hairpins.

You were wearing diamond studded gold armlets and hands full of gold and matching colored bangles, gold and diamond rings on your slender long beautiful fingers. You were also wearing a beautiful gold precious stone studded wide waist band around your thin waist, a gold key chain tucked in the sari on the side below your beautiful flashing deep navel, ornamental gold two sari brooches connected with three layer long chain and pin, and series of heavy precious stone studded gold brooches at the end of sari pallu to weigh it down. You were wearing a V-neck deep low and wide cut short sleeve backless blouse. The blouse was cut so deep from the front to expose your chest lines in the front and is backless from behind to give a sexy look flaunting your curves catching all the eyeballs in the party. Your beautiful feet decorated with intricate design mehindi, gold anklets and diamond studded silver toe rings. I could have licked your feet if there was an opportunity and time.

You were the only woman who dressed so sexily and boldly in the wedding ceremony. All the gold, precious stones and diamond studded elaborate jewelry complimented your natural beauty. I told you that night that you were looking like a bride. You were looking like a rich beautiful sexy long haired love Goddess descended from heaven to grace the marriage ceremony moving around exuding divine feminine charm, beauty and sexuality. I noticed women were looking at you with admiration, appreciation and envy looking at your beauty and men looking at you with desire.

I thought I should marry you. I know it is not possible. I thought I would have married your daughter or younger sister resembling you. You were looking like a divine beautiful sexy Kama Goddess.

Oh! Shiva, I would have been happy to have you as my son-in-law or brother-in-law. You remember me so well, and all those minute details of jewelry I was wearing.

Amma, "the image of you permanently etched in my mind and scent of your body aroma is still fresh in my mind. I inhaled aphrodisiac aroma of your sweat stained armpits when you lifted your hands.'

Shiva, I did notice that you smelled my armpits. You are so naughty to smell my armpits. Many a time I deliberately lifted my hands to allow you to smell my sweaty armpits. You were so naughty you almost licked my armpits and smelling.

Padma, I wanted to remove your blouse and lick your armpits smelling with female body scent. I do remember, it was love, infatuation, intense, fatal and irresistible attraction and desire at first sight. I knew it was indecent to look at you being my best friend's mother.

You knew it was indecent. But you never left me for a second. You were always looking at me or standing beside me touching my body whenever and wherever possible. I even felt your hard cock pressing my arse.

Padma, The moment I looked at you I felt I own you. I could not take off my eyes even for a moment from you. All through the marriage ceremony, I never missed an opportunity to be around you, watching you, admiring you, appreciating and drinking your beauty. I wanted to feel and touch you. I touched your midriff as if it was inadvertent action whenever possible. I inhaled your body aroma standing behind you and smelled your intoxicating sweat stained armpits. I wanted to talk to you in privacy but mostly you were busy with so many relatives and guests around. I could only talk to you in the crowd. For me, there was no opportunity to express my admiration, desire and intense love and true feelings to you in privacy. I tried to communicate my intense feelings of love and desire with you mostly by looking at you. I knew you understood, noticed my attention, love and desire for you. I also wanted that you create an opportunity for us for a private meeting, knowing that it was not possible for you being bridegroom's mother.

Shiva, 'You expressed and conveyed your desire for me very well in words and in action. I even felt your hard cock against my ass, as if you wanted to penetrate my ass hole.'

Padma, You reciprocated with bewitchingly inviting beautiful sexy smiles and encouraging me silently. I felt you are mine and you belong to me. You were born for me. I wanted to fuck you. My desire was so intense that my cock was hard and erect and I pressed your ass with my hard cock.

Shiva, I remember when you came to me, and said, 'You are lovely and the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. You are looking like a bride'. I blushed, felt overwhelmed, very much happy and excited to hear such intense adorable compliments praising my beauty from an young handsome hunk and my dream man. I was also surprised you said that to me, your best friend's mother so confidently and daringly without hesitation as if I am your lover. Though I was bit surprised, I was happy, pleasantly surprised and delighted that you found me the most beautiful woman despite the fact there were so many beautiful desirable young sexy girls and married women of all ages flocking around you.

Padma, no other girl or woman attracted me except you.

Shiva, I have seen young girls and women giggling and looking at you obviously interested in you and trying to flirt with you shamelessly. However, I was thrilled, disregarding all the attention from the girls and women, you did not leave me and followed me oblivious of so many people around. Shiva, If you paid so much attention as you showed on me, You could have fucked any girl or woman you want on that night. Some of them were ready and available for you.

Padma, But I wanted only you.

Shiva, I still remember as if it happened yesterday, you were always following me, flirting with me openly all through the wedding ceremony and later. You smelled and inhaled me standing beside or behind me. I could feel your breath on my neck, shoulders and face. You were so confident that I would not say no to you and trying to woo me with your charm and chivalry. You said that I was more beautiful than the all the young girls there. In group photos during reception, you were standing beside me closely, placing your hand around my waist as if you were my husband. My sister and mother also observed us and while looking at wedding album said, 'you both were looking like incurable romantic lovers having an ongoing steamy affair. I did not realize then that body chemistry and attraction between us was so apparent and visible to others. Some might have assumed that you must have been fucking me.

You never left my thoughts since that day. You entered my mind, my thoughts, my soul and my dreams and have been thinking of you always since then. My desire for you increased day by day and has been waiting to be in your arms and to be possessed by you. I have been feeling like a young girl falling in love for the first time in her life with her dream man. Since that day, I could not think of anything else except you while awake or asleep. You have been always in my thoughts, in me, and around me. You have occupied me. You possessed me.

'You are really lovely, beautiful, sexy and exciting slut, Amma,' I said stroking her big hard jutting brown nipples with my tongue and fingers. Her breasts became engorged and her nipples grew bigger and harder. You have such big extra-large beautiful bouncing firm huge hanging breasts Amma,' I said.

I noticed your looks especially at my breasts. She smilingly replied, 'Ever since my teen age men always looked at my extra-large breasts. I knew you were looking at my huge breasts in the first encounter as if you wanted to suck and eat them. I would have offered them to you then, had there been an opportunity and time. You are the first man I want to offer my breasts to suck when you looked at them with desire'.

She said, 'truly, I was romantically and sexually attracted to you when you first saw me and I wanted you to fuck me. That was the first time I felt so much happy as a woman that a man desired me to fuck me, but the circumstances, the occasion and the presence of other people being around and so many other factors prevented me to express my love for you. I involuntarily without any hesitation reciprocated when you were flirting. Though I was busy attending to the guests, you did not leave me. I did not want you to be away from me even for a moment. You were naughty. You brushed against my breasts, touched my hips, and put your arms around my waist. I knew your desires and obvious intentions and I felt happy. You were praising my long hair and you even counted the number of loops in my braid, which surprised me to such extent that how keenly you were observing me. The mutual desire and fatal attraction between us was undoubtedly evident. It was the first time in my life, I experienced such an intense fatal attraction to a man, that too my son's friend. It was a pleasurable surprise to my own self. My long dormant sexual desires surfaced.

I was like a musical instrument, kept unattended, unused for a long time, you opened the cover, dusted cleaned and started playing my strings tuning beautiful melodies and ragas. I wanted you to play with my body. I wanted you to take me in your arms, hug me, cuddle me, kiss me, enter me, open me, occupy me, and fuck me. I felt you were the man I have been dreaming about all my life since I was girl. I thought, finally I found my man to whom I belong. I asked you to come again during the holidays with my son because I want you to fuck me. I have been waiting eagerly to meet you and be fucked by you. I had dreams of you overpowering me and seducing me and sometimes even forcing to fuck me.' I enjoyed all my dreams. I was imagining that you would take me by force if I refuse.

Shiva, "why did you not hug me, take me into your arms, kiss me and fuck me on that night? You should have fucked me on that night. I was ready and available for you.'

Padma, I knew you were ready but not available on that night. You were busy surrounded by so many guests and performing various wedding rituals. I wanted to kiss you and fuck you desperately but controlled myself. I took your hands in my hands, and I took you her long braid in my hands on that night. Padma, There were so many guests around you. I really wanted to fuck you that night. If you were not bride groom's mother I would have dragged you to a room and fucked you.'