37. The Truth

"What does it mean, Logan? Huh?" napa-sulyap sandali si Logan kay Stella at parang nag-uusok na sa galit ang mukha ni Stella.

Pero sandali, parang nagugulumihanan ako sa mga nangyayari. Ano bang meron sa kanila? Bakit kung maka-react 'tong Stella na 'to ay ganun na lang? mukhang nag-seselos pa ata?

"Logan, tell me. Is this a girl that you love than me? Siya na ba yung pinag-palit mo sa akin, Huh!?" nag-wawalang sabi ni Stella at dinuro pa ako. Sandaling binitawan ni Logan ang kamay ko nang hinarap niya si Stella, at sabay humalukipkip siya.

"It's none of your business. Get lost." kalmadong sabi ni Logan. Pagdaka'y nabigla ako nang hawakan niya ako ulit sa kamay at hinila niya ako paalis doon.

"How dare you to do this to me, Logan!" Narinig kong pahabol na sabi ni Stella bago kami naka-pasok sa loob ng elevator. Mukhang nang-gagalaiti na ata siya doon sa galit.

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o maiinis, sa nangyari at sa ginawa ni Logan. Parang naninikip pa rin ang dibdib ko, at bigla nalang kumulo ang dugo ko. Hays. Saka, ano nga bang paki ko sa kanilang dalawa? Jusme. Ano ba kasi 'tong pinasok ko? Baka maiipit pa ako sa kanila.

Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ako mapa-kali dahil ginagambala na naman ako ng maraming katanungan sa isip ko, matapos kong masaksihan ang mga nangyari kanina.

Honey? Anong ibig sabihin 'non? Na may namamagitan na pala sa kanilang dalawa? Kaya ganun nalang maka-yapos yung Stella na 'yon sa kanya kanina?

Sinubukan kong harapin si Logan na ngayon ay tahimik na naka-tayo sa tabi ko at naka-side view siya sa akin.

"L-logan, balikan mo dun si Stella. Kailangan ka niya.." malumanay kong sabi. Napansin kong hindi siya napa-gawi sa akin ng mag-salita siya.

"Tsk. For what?" walang gana niyang sinabi.

"D-diba, girlfriend mo siya? Hahayaan mo nalang ba siya 'don?" Halata naman eh. At hindi na nga siguro nakakapag-taka na tinawag na 'honey' nung malditang Stella na 'yon si Logan. Ugh! bakit parang naapektuhan ako! Lintek. Saka bakit ko pa kasing naisipang tanungin pa sa kanya 'yon? Naliktikan na talaga.

Sa pagkakataon na 'to, humarap na siya sa akin. Malamlam ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya at mukhang nag-hahalimaw na naman siya.

"She's not my girlfriend.." napakunot noo ako ng magtaka ako sa sinabi niya.

"A-anong ibig mong sabihin?" parang unti-unting lumuwag ang kalooban ko nang marinig ko mula sa kanya na hindi niya girlfriend si Stella.

So ano lang niya? Dancer at pick-up girl niya sa club na pinupuntahan niya? Matinik rin pala 'tong halimaw na 'to kung gayon nga. Hindi pa pumili ng mataas-taas sa standards ko. Tss. Low class. Ang taray kasi eh. Hindi naman pala girlfriend ni Logan. Tss.

Napansin kong nag-bago na ang halimaw na ekspresyon sa mukha niya, at nakita kong naka-sideview na siya ngayon sa akin. Pero sandali, gumuhit ang ngisi sa kanyang labi.

"I'm her fiance.." biglang napa-bagsak ang balikat ko nang bitiwan niya ang salitang 'yon. Parang naramdaman ko na dinudurog ang puso ko. Nang-nginginig ang tuhod ko ng magulantang ako.

Fiance? Nung Stella na 'yon? Pero paano?

Nawala ang antok ko nang naging okupado ang isip ko dahil sa mga bagay na tumatakbo ngayon sa isip ko. Hanggang sa naka-labas na kami ng elevator at hindi ko na nagawang umimik sa kanya.

Oo. Sa totoo lang, parang naiiyak ako. Letse! Ano bang nangyayari sa akin? Lintek na halimaw 'to. Papa-iyakin pa ata ako. Kung alam ko lang, hindi ko na sana tinanong pa eh. Letse.

Okay. Ang oa ko na. Eh di fiance kung fiance. Bahala sila. Nakaka-inis.

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|| Logan Figueroa ||

I noticed Marsha until now that she suddenly became quiet. I don't know what was running now in her head--well actually, if I'm not mistaken, maybe there's a lot of things ruining in her head about of what was I said to her a while ago. I grinned.

So, is she becoming jealous? Then, I should make sure of it.

Our surrounding now was still still enveloped of placidity when she didn't uttered any words after I let out my last words earlier.

I noticed that she was looking far away outside the window while she's seating beside me, as we're now inside my car while I'm driving.

Yeah. I still remember what I've said before that I'll look for some details on her background. I didn't actually believe at first, but when I find out a lot of info's about her--that she's Marsha that I'm looking for so many damned years, my whirlpool world suddenly turns into darn life. Yeah, speaking of it, I found something that making me to really believe on it, nang mapulot ko ang wallet niya sa ilalim ng desk ko. Nang pinalinis ko iyon nung isang araw. And I saw a picture of her na masasabi kong matagal na niyang picture, at nasilayan ko ang mukha niya na which making myself to throwing back about my past years that I'm damn fall on her. Tsk. It's couldn't believing! Lalo pa't naka-lagay sa wallet niya ang pangalang Marsha Sandoval.

Then it is--telling in my mind that I don't fucking want to but there's something pushing me that I don't want to let her far from me. Kaya ganun nalang rin siguro ang naging timpla ng tingin ko sa kanya nang mag-apply siya ng trabaho. What a damn coincidence.

I think it's maybe a damn destiny, and my heart suddenly was filled up when I found her.

Yeah, I regret about my stupidity words before where I'm telling to my self that all girls is just a trash--like her. After she just left me away and after telling to me that she likes me for a past years ago. The heck!

And now, I'm fucking starting to take care of her--and I want her always at my side. That's why I don't want her also to be far from me actually, and it was the reason why I suddenly found out in my self that I'm fucking falling on her again. The hell! I really don't understand why I'm becoming like this. And now I'm darn regretting to myself as it looks like na binabawi ko na ang mga sinabi ko noon. The hell lose.

"L-logan.."

Throwing of my thoughts, the silence suddenly broke when I heard she uttered. But I didn't take a look on her face and I didn't replied for a while.

"U-uhmm..nagagalit ka ba sa akin?" I smiled a little bit when I heard it from her.

Me? Why would I be mad to her? Oh, maybe is it because a while ago. I'm just rather the hell stupid that's why I don't know how to open up a conversation to her until now. Tsk. Fucking man.

"Why did you said?" I asked in a blank expression.

"A-ahh..ano, gusto ko lang malaman.." she said in a low voice with stammering. I tried to peek on her quickly and I saw that she put her head down.

"No." matipid kong sabi. I know she was still looking at me trying to check me out.

"U-uhh..okay.." rinig kong sabi niya at ilang segundo naman ang lumipas bago niya sinubukan uling kausapin ako.

"L-logan, pwede ba kitang tanungin?"

"About what?" I know. She'll insist herself to know about Stella and me. At hindi na ako mag-tataka. I hide my smile.

"U-uhmm..ano, kasi..matagal mo na bang fiance si Stella?" she asked curiously. I tried to gazed on her for a while when she uttered it. Then afterwards, I look back again on my way.

"Yes." I said in emphasis.

"A-ahh, okay." I saw her in my peripheral vision that she's nodding her head at looks like that she is in sad-face. Afterwards, she swirled her body behind me.

Yes. I said it to her because I want to see if what will be her reaction. But when I saw looked on her awhile ago, I know there's something inside of her that making her feel pain.

Oh, I like it by the way. I'm just waiting if she'll try to admit it to me, because I know that she'll not let it without I didn't knew if it'll be.

I really knew about Marsha. And when I try to be mad at her without a reason, she easily give up. I smirked.

Oh by the way, speaking to Stella. She's not actually my type, and she's not my fucking fiance. My mom and dad is a fucking hindrance on me as they're the one who planned this.

Yeah, they want me to fucking marry Stella even it's against my will. That's why Stella acting that I'm now his fiance at pinag-pipilitan niya rin ang sarili niya sa akin.. Darn it. She's a kind of a trash.

And speaking of it, I used it for Marsha so I may probably know if what she really feels to me. Because I'm fucking insane actually thinking always about her. Darn! But I feel that I want her in my life everyday.