2: Unexpected

keep moving life despite of hardship. And that is what I told to myself.

Today I am working in the small cafe in our village to help my mom in aiding our financial problem at home. I didn't expect this happen, until my father accident unexpectedly change my life.

At the cafe:

Hey Francesca what's wrong? what are you thinking? Jack asked me.

And I answered His questions softly with blank mind, (sigh) I don't know what's going on in my life, I am afraid to lose my dream , but how can I achieve my dream when the things like this happened to my family.

Jack replied me with loving voice.; Francesca just smile and pray to the Lord always.

And our conversation last until we close the cafe at 9 in the night.

After we closed the shop, I go home directly and I saw my mom in the balcony. I came to her directly and asked why she was not sleep yet. She said, she was waiting for me because she want me to eat dinner with her. Our house became so much quite and I think maybe because of our sadness in our heart. And because of the unexpected accident of my father. My siblings are sleeping and mama and I are eating.

While eating we ahe asked frankly , Francesca? and i nodded my head with a soft voice. Yes mama.!

And mama spoke to me kindly like kneeling in my front, Francesca I'm sorry, I can't send you to college this time, maybe next time if your father become heal.

And answered quickly with a teary eye, Mama don't worry I understand you and papa.

it seems like the bullet hit my heart and broke sadly. I understood mama but in my mind I am groaning silently, because I want to finish my study. In my heart and my mind I am convinced that this is just a little trap that I need to overcome. But the truth is , this is the big obstacle in my way that I need to pass.

I accepted to myself that I hurt so much and I feel down. But I understand to my family situation.

After we ate , I go to the bed while mama go to her room also.

The night is silent but I feel so sad of what I heard. I always telling my mind to be strong and don't give up. This time even I like to giving up my dream and I want to work hard for my family. But I heard a small voice telling me "don't give up, there is a way". I feel so happy to heard that word but I can't denied the sadness in my heart. Time passed by and I got slept.

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Today I wake up again with sadness heart. I am sad because of the tragedy that we have now. And I can't hide it to myself.

I earnestly stand by my feet open the window of my room and look the cloudy sky directly. And I said to myself. I will not give up. And I will word hard for my dream.

I got down from the stairs and I see my mama preparing the our meal in the kitchen.

Mama ?

Yes Francesca!

Mama I want to go to college , I will find way to enroll this year.

And mama answered me directly with loud voice; Francesca did you here yourself? are you blind? Did you not see our situation now?

And I answered here with softly ; Mama don't worry for my study I will make it a way , all I need is your support.

Mama didn't answered me and he began to cry,

And told here again; Mama don't cry I understand you!.

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We eat with my siblings and also I prepared quickly to go to work.

My work is inside our village and it is near to our house. While walking in the village I see the man posting " Hiring Company Scholars with their number". And after read the posted paper in the wall I quickly get my phone and contact the number .

The number I called was ringing but no one answered. I got disappointed and I forget it with my mind.

I enter in the cafe and begin to work. While in my break I receive a text from my phone with the message" Hi ma'am/sir good day by the way this KSLC , may I know your reason in calling us? .