Chapter 19.2 - This is not the Xue Rui I know

The original Li XinWen was underneath Xue Rui, his eyes closed, his face a mixed expression of pain, exhaustion, a bit of pleasure and anger. His hands rested on Xue Rui's chest and his arms seemed to be straining, as if he was trying to push the person off him to no avail. The original Li XinWen hadn't noticed that someone else was in the room, Xue Rui did, however. In spite knowing that someone else was in the room, he continued his thrusting as if his only concern was to mark and claim what was his.

Li JingHua walked closer, each step silent, yet heavy. Xue Rui's gaze moved from the person underneath him towards Li JingHua, for a split second it was as if Xue Rui had a smile on his lips, but Li XinWen could not be certain, as the room was a bit dark. But as Li JingHua came closer, Li XinWen saw that Xue Rui's gaze, was piercing. His eyes laced with a ruthlessness, indifference and consumed by animalistic desire, as if telling Li JingHua that this is who he was.

'Who is this person?' Li XinWen asked himself after noticing something different in Xue Rui. 'This is not the Xue Rui that I know at all… what happened to him?' If Li XinWen was physically present, he would be able to figure out by the spiritual signature but unfortunately, this was only a world of memories.

Li JingHua gasped and covered her mouth, stifling her urge to shout and scream at the individuals in front of her. She bit her lip and lowered her hands. Clenching them into fists, digging her nails into her palm.

'This needs to end…' Li JingHua whispered.

Li XinWen watched as Li JingHua raised both hands and clapped. It was painful to watch. The expression on Li JingHua's face was indescribable, her smile twisted and trembled, her eyes reflected her raging heart. The sound of clapping hands startled the original Li XinWen, he turned his head towards the direction of the sound after realizing that there was someone else in the room. His eyes widened after recognizing that it was his sister.

He struggled to push Xue Rui, but Xue Rui held him down, looking straight at him with unrelenting gaze.

"Rui-ge… please… I'm begging you…" the original Li XinWen whispered, almost whimpering. The panic in his voice seemed to have brought Xue Rui back to his senses. His glance went from Li JingHua back to Li XinWen who was underneath him before he pulled himself out and got off Li XinWen. Xue Rui's reaction was one of indifference, unperturbed by Li JingHua's presence or by the fact that he was caught by his fiancé in an unspeakable act. He nonchalantly walked towards the chair in the corner and started to dress himself. The original Li XinWen quickly grabbed the blanket and covered himself as he struggled to stand up.

"Hua-jie…" he called out, his voice shaky and his eyes filled with fear and panic. "Hua-jie, I… I can explain…"

"Explain what XinWen?" she asked, suppressing the anger that was slowly spreading through her whole being. "I believe I've already seen everything. What else is there to explain?" Tears slowly flowing down Li JingHua's cheeks.

"Ah'Wen… even though I didn't know of your sexuality before this, I would've still accepted you," Li JingHua's voice was too calm, but the expression on her face and her cold gaze which pierced through Li XinWen contradicted her calm voice. It was worse than being screamed at out of anger. The disappointment in Li JingHua's voice made Li XinWen crumble.

"Hua-jie… it's not what you think… please, please hear me out—"

Li JingHua cut him off, "Even though it's the apocalypse… XinWen, there are still so many other men out there. Why? Why did it have to be Xue Rui? You of all people know that he and I are engaged. You just had to snatch your own sister's fiancé? How could you? How could you betray me like this?"

"Hua-jie, let me explain—"

"Enough XinWen… I don't want to hear any lies!... Enough…" Li JingHua's voice was pained and quaking as her tears, continued to flow. She turned to Xue Rui, who sat on the chair, in the corner, eyes downcast, his demeanor indifferent as if the concept of guilt was something foreign to him.

"Our engagement is over Xue Rui…" Li JingHua declared through her tears, her heart aching and her throat constricting. Her hand shook as she struggled to take off the diamond ring she cherished ever since Xue Rui's proposal.

"I feel like I've been made a fool of by both of you… you make me sick…" Li JingHua said as she threw the ring at Xue Rui, who did not even flinch when the ring hit him on the chest. The original Li XinWen was beside himself as the repercussion of his betrayal unfolded in front of him.

"No… Hua-jie… please…"

"Being the third wheel in a loving relationship makes me sick and I want no part of it."

The last sentence that Li JingHua said seems to have been aimed directly at the original Li XinWen, but before anything else happened, she left the room, slamming the door shut in anger.

Li XinWen, whose consciousness was directly connected to Li JingHua naturally left the room along with her even though he wanted to stay and observe the original some more. 'I wonder if that was the reason why Li JingHua feels guilty... did he commit suicide sometime afterwards?' he wondered.