What If

>Sheloah's POV<

I sighed at my disappointment, and I shuffled my music para may pinapakinggan ako habang nililinisan ko yung cloth na ginamit for Veon's wound. Pagkatapos nito, pwede ko na gawan si Veon ng pagkain so I plan for something easy to eat. Like soup.

No'ng pinapakinggan ko yung song, I noticed the song is "What If" by Colbie Caillat. Pinakinggan ko nang mas mabuti yung lyrics at napansin ko na habang pinapakinggan ko, naiisip ko si Veon. Parang relate na relate pa ako sa kanta.

I see you standin'over there

You look around without a care

I pretend you notice me

I look in your eyes and what you see

No'ng narinig ko yung part na 'yan, bigla ako napatigil sa pag lalaba ko ng cloth ni Veon. Medyo natamaan ako sa stanza na 'yan. Naalala ko kasi yung time na nakatayo lang siya sa classroom namin dati tapos nakatingin sa labas tapos tinitingnan ko siya.

Is it made up in my mind?

Am I crazy just wasting time?

I think this could be love…

I'm serious

Inirapan ko yung song at tinuloy ko yung paglalaba ko. Tiningnan ko ang orasan. 6PM na. Natapos yung laban ng Army of True Salvation versus Weapons of Massive Destruction noong 8:!5AM.

Na-treat si Veon ng 8:30 at hanggang ngayon, 6:12PM, tulog pa siya. Well, 'di naman niya maiiwasan kasi may injury siya. Ngayong gabi habang niluluto ko yung soup niya, nilalabhan ko yung cloth, pinapatama ako ng kantang ito.

What if we were made for each other?

Born to become bestfriends or lovers?

I want to stay right here in this moment with you over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love a love a love yeah

Nangangarap nanaman ako.

I write our names down in the sand

Picturin' all our plans

I close my eyes and I could see you

And you ask "will you marry me?"

Is it made up in my mind?

Am I crazy just wasting time?

I think this could be love…

I'm serious

What if we were made for each other?

Born to become bestfriends or lovers?

I want to stay right here in this moment with you over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love a love a love yeah

No'ng narinig ko nanaman yung chorus, I can't help but think of Veon. Yung mga times na magkasama kami. Naaalala ko pa yung time na nagbigay ako sa kanya ng scrapbook as a birthday gift tapos binasa ng nanay niya.

I don't know what to think

Is this real or just a dream?

In my heart is where you'll be

I'll keep waiting 'til we meet

Naalala ko yung confession ko sa kanya kagabi. Sinabi ko lahat sa kanya kung ano talaga ang nararamdaman ko towards him. He rejected me, yeah… pero 'yan ang desisyon niya. Wala naman akong magagawa at isa pa, ayos lang na friends lang kami. At least sinabi ko ang nararamdaman ko.

What if we were made for each other?

Born to become bestfriends or lovers?

I want to stay right here in this moment with you over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love a love a love yeah

Boy you know you really make my heart stop stop stop yeah

Oh what if this is real love?

Oh what if this is real love?

Oh boy you make my heart stop you make my heart stop you make my heart stop

And with that last part of the song, sinabit ko yung wet cloth near the window and I wiped my hands. Hinalo ko yung sopas na niluluto ko at tinanggal ko yung saksakan after I turned off the stove.

Nilagay ko yung sopas sa dining table, kumuha ako ng bowl, at naglagay ako ng soup. I got spoon from the drawers tapos nilagay ko sa tray, katabi ng water at soup niya, at pinuntahan ko siya.

No'ng pinuntahan ko siya, I saw Veon, still sleeping on the bed katabi ng pinsan kong lalaki. Since nagamot siya ni Isobel kanina, hindi pa siya nagigising dahil sa wound niya. Pero siguro ayos lang na matulog siya para makapag pahinga siya at para medyo lumamig yung sopas. Ayaw niya kasi ng masyadong mainit na pagkain.

Umupo ako sa sahig at tinabihan ko ang nanay ko. Pareho kaming kumakain ng sopas. Sinabi ng mama ko na masarap ang luto ko. Buti naman. Hindi kasi marunong magluto nanay ko kaya ako na ang nagluluto.

Ngumiti ako and I decided to close the windows. Since gabi, medyo maginaw kahit nasa probinsya kami. Nakasando at denim shorts lang ako. Si Veon, naka bandage at shorts na binigay ni Geof para sa kanya. Mamaya na susuotin ni Veon ang t-shirt niya pag gising na siya.