1 To be or not to be. That is the question.

I died that all you need to know. I died to a very boring and stupid reason. I trusted the wrong person, and he killed me.

*sigh*

I looked outside my bedroom window looking at night sky and trying to justify I deserve a second chance in life and all I did before was better for everyone including me. But that's sound like a complete bullshit.

*sigh*

I tried scratching my head where my bandage was irritating me. 'Fuck this stupid head thing.' I screamed internally.

I fall back on my bed and said out loud 'I deserve a second chance in life, I deserve a second chance in life, I deserve a second chance in life. But do I deserve to be Lily Evans?'

I looked at my 5-year-old hands and tried again to reason I have earned merit, in my life to be given a second chance and to be give a boon of magic also.

'Am I really going to live in this magic world?' I felt shiver run down my spine.

'Harry Potter world Hummm, I have read countless fan-fiction.' But in fan-fiction there was a distinct type of MC being all good or all evil? You can tell that by reading about them from the start. How they go about approaching people and how they all have the halo of all going according to the plan. Rarely they have any issue with plot holes, like how can a baby defeat the power dark lord or how Defence Against The Dark Arts potion is Curse and no one was able to break it. There are multiple plot issue that was never talked by Rowling and it was taken up by fan-fiction society to manipulate as they want.

'Wait am a Main Character?' I sat up again with frown on my face. In the last 50+ year life I have all way like as I wanted and worked hard to get what I wanted. Money, Fame, lovers..husbands.

Should I just live it like that, or should I be like Lily even is going to be (according to the books or fan fiction). Goodie two shoes, know it all, good at charms, wife of Potter and mother to Harry Potter? Was there more to Lily Potter I mean Evens than that?

'OK stop this and start thinking as you. What would you do'?

IF I was Lily Evans then first, I need to remove the status of muggle born from me. This is trick and will make smarts and money but this NEED to be done. Second, I must decide should I connect with Severus Snape or not? I need to stay neutral in this war.

'Should I leave British Isles?' No, I need to qualify as full grow witch and then I can do what I want.

Potter and Black, I know lot about them due to books and fan-fiction, what is true and what real that is what I need to figure out.

With all these thought I went to sleep having a weird nightmare of running while getting chased by dogs with knife in their mouths and running with ravens by my side.

Next morning my mother or Lily mother came in and start fussing over me. I just rolled my eyes and did what she told while thinking about my home situation. Helen and harry Evans are good and normal (eye roll and yes, I said that about Lily's) parents. Her sister on the other had is a stuck-up, stupid girl who things she is the best and deserve the best, Petunia Evans.

Normal, easy and muggle life. This is what Lily's I mean my life is.

I don't think Lily has met Severus Snape as they just moved into this house 2 days ago and Lily in all her hyper running got hit in her head by the door and fainted.

All TADA I appear in her body all 53 year back on time. Fuck.

'OK, calm down' I murmured starting hard at my breakfast.

'ahem ahem' I turn my head to petunia who was smirking at me. Bitch.

I stared at her and said 'what'? She smiled and said 'breakfast is getting cold and you should finish it quickly'.

I turned back to my breakfast and stared at it again and slow started eating.

Harry Evans ( I need to start calling his dad, I through) and started talking to Helan and Petunia about the upcoming school semester and how we are all going have good Christmas in this big home.

Wait do I even have magic. I screamed initially and standing up straight. All Evans started at me and I just stood there thinking hard. This body has no collection of magic or anything she has ever done.

Am I a witch or not?