Why did all this happen ? why did I fall in love with the wrong person? why did I give my life to him? . . . "to be loved from distance like the stars" love was never about place, it was about hearts. the love that flew boundaries , the love that journeyed the universe. the love that made them live. love.
I open my eyes from the heavy sleep.. Hearing mama make sounds from the hall... I see the fan turning with a sloth speed... wtf! I'm wet... I'm sweating like anything...I just hate the everyday routine... waking up brushing teeth... we could all just sleep till we die...anyway ,I only have a week before the school reopens ad I'm turning 17 soon..
I stretch my body as I think about my love life.. it's been dull up to now... and I've gotta do something... come on.. I'm sixteen and still a virgin...
anyway...
' sairah..honey I'm going to work,have your food it's on the table'
i hear mama shouting but at the same time she's searching for her keys... in a hurry...
I wake up slowly as I hear the thud of the main door...
As I walk to the bathroom with a slow pace,.
I happened to watch our neighbors.. i mean the house... through the window . I believe that no one lives there. like who lives under a rock... no home delivery .no any such stuff.. I've never seen a person walk out of the house... but every Saturday night I hear something.i think, i hear screams.. i got inside the bathroom. locks it ..
god ! i hate that sound!
I remove my nightie as I peep my head into the shower .. i open hot water and I begin to wash.. and I come back to the topic ' my neighbors'
...the screams,
but I've never paid any attention to it. my mom thinks that there are supernatural beings in there. how can she not think like that-she is an astrologer and a tarot reader... well I don't believe in any such things.
ghosts, vampires, aliens , werewolves, my ass!!!... i take a towel to cover my body ... I'm more of a shytype.. i hate seeing even myself naked. and we have that huge mirror in my bathroom i hate it.. i open the bathroom door and I feel my breath... the hotshower was kind of suffocating...
well another day of home alone.. i finish dressing up and I walk down the steps, remembering things I've gotta do.!
today I've gotta a lot to do. i have to do zumba before the school opens. cause I'm becoming fat... ! I've never been one of the plastics in my school. but I'm much of a catch. I'm not that ugly losers...
maybes I'm being mean but that's me.
I insert the bread into the toaster and by the time I search my jam it's toasted.. i enjoy my breakfast alone..
I've gotta a bunch of boys coming after me..
like there's Neel, Harry, John, Cash, Matt and a lot...
none of them would believe that I'm a virgin... they think I'm off limits for them. but I would love to date any one of them. like they are all sweet... but none of them is 'The One'.
I definitely want to hook up this year.. maybe there will be newcomers... anyway it's time for me to rock