Reili
Well, the raid *was* unavoidable, if she had delayed a family member would have died (forgot if it was the cousin or sister that was trapped), and she couldn't avoid the fight forever, the longer she left it the harder and more dangerous it would be. The god slayer was also completely at her mercy, she had the perfect ambush prepared.
Reili, Dearest author, person and soul. Take your time. As much as we love your story, you are going through a rough time. I've lost a couple family members including my Brother and Grandpa to cancer. Take deep breaths. I hope the test shows no cancer. It's ok to worry. Just please take care of yourself the best you can. Dont forget to eat, sleep if you can and drink water. You are loved.