The Hourglass

Love can be weird, you may reason it is because her beauty, gentle self, his intellect or even your own brain is producing some chemical because you are to desperate for some love.

However when we want to explain it is just to difficult to do it , you describe it to abstract or maybe you focused too much on one aspect.

Sometimes you even forgot when you started to love someone and you forgot the reason why, maybe that's why people describe the right answer is just "I don't know" or "I just love you".

As I said earlier love is really are weird, for example right now the girl I loved since I was a child kissed someone else because of my help. I wonder why is the answer the same as why I loved her "I don't know".

You see while I appear happy and congratulating her when she thanked me I wanted to cry inside my heart but I know as a man I should hold it and I should hold it because it will make her guilty and I have found the one I think that's for me moreover she is waiting for me to complete my goodbye to Jessica even if Jessica didn't know about it.

As I say goodbye to her while thinking how stupid I am, I recalled how strong I am and recalled the fact that I am basically Immortal and this is just a part of my life, a very small part and at last I can finally let go all of my love toward her, my felling for her right now only can be called friendship.

Then suddenly the ground shook and I saw a part of building falling on me.

...

A few months ago.

I open my eyes and I as usual see the hourglass and the small number beside it on the corner of my eyes, then I closed my eyes only to see the hourglass that was on the corner of my eyes enlarging and moving to the center of my eyesight.

The hourglass and the number on it's upper right side that show a '768' looks sacred with darkness as it's background.

I opened my eyes again to see the hourglass returned to it's usual position, I sat up on my bed to recall the unique ability that I had since I am aware of it.

...….

Since child I always see a hourglass with a number beside it that increase in number every week when I close my eyes I could see it very detailed , when I want to see the sand I suddenly zoomed into it and when I want it gone it shrinked until I can't see it.

As I grow older I asked my parents and after I asked them a few times they became concerned and they take me to see a doctor, maybe they though I was hallucinating. It was the same as my friends they became concerned, they laugh probably though it was a joke.

But only one person believed me when I told her that and for that silly reason I fall in love with her, Justin Jessica. She is kind, beautiful, and she is a quiet person, when someone make her mad she just scold them softly.

And there's me Michael Febrianto, it's probably a very common name since I have once searched it on go*gle and a lot of them shows up, I am a person who is lazy but when I decided on something I do it with my all, I like anime ,manga ,novel , I don't hang out with my friends outside schools. To be honest I though my self as a loser too.

But she Justin Jessica, my childhood friend, my best friend , and the girl I like says " you are not a loser Michael, you helped other when they didn't even ask even though they need it, you didn't became arrogant when you are better than others, you have so many good points to cover you bad ones, then why do you think too much about the bad ones, think about the good ones"

Perhaps it is love at first sight but that love just became deeper the longer I spent time with her.

...….

And her I am, 17 years old, third year of high school, today I am going to confess my love to her.

I am so exited about it that I go trough bathing, eating breakfast with family, putting on my uniform without realizing it already done,

When I was awake I am already on my house gate with my brother getting ready to be driven to school by our driver, then I looked back at the house I lived.

It was a bread factory combined with my home. On the second floor of this building is my house and on the first one is the packing place. While the bread itself is made on a building next door just a few meter from this one.

On the way to school I remember the plan, basically I will tell her that I have something to talk with her, it's cliché yeah but I already did that multiple times on her with other matter as excuse so she will definitely be surprised when I confessed to her.

Just thinking about it make me laugh and it earned a weird look from my brother. Then before the car arrived at my school I asked the driver to not pick me up after school because I have something to do on school and I will go home by myself.

After exiting the car I read the name on stone wall surrounding my school, Don Bo*co Highschool. As usual I entered the class and I read novel on my phone while waiting for Jessica.

As I read it I became engrossed into it so I forgot time and when I was awoken by the sound from announcer the school already officially start.

When I looked around the seat is already filled and the teacher is opening the door. Then I spot her sitting there quietly for the lesson to start, Justin Jessica. Then I sighed, how come I lost my first chance to ask her because I am engrossed on the novel?

After that I waited patiently for the lunch break so that I can tell her that, finally the lunch break stared just as I wanted to go to her seat I saw her walking here so I waved my hand and smiled.

She arrived at my seat and before I could say anything she says "MF can I met you in the class when the school ended".

I became stunned because she stole the word right out of my mouth, by the way my nickname is MF since it's the initial of my name. still I managed to say "okay".

Then she says bye and I say it too, I watched her run to her friends that is waiting for her.

Just like before I waited for the school to end and when it does I pretend to go home too but still Left my bag there since I didn't want her to think I already gone and back to my house.

I go to toilet, I peed, washed my hand, tidied my clothes, and wait for others to go home.

After everyone's out of the classroom, I entered it and I saw that she sit on my desk, hearing the noise she turned to me and smiled while standing up.

I walked to her, as I I got closer to her I felt something began to flow inside me just like the sand that flowed downward slowly on the hourglass that represent my lifespan.

When I was right in front of her, I was about to confess to her but before I could she spoke first.

"Michael I want you to help me with something!"

She basically shouted these word and she continued before I get a chance to say anything she spoke softly.

"I want you to help me to confess to Mario Agustian"

Right after she finished the last word, she began to blush and I felt like I was struck by lightning.

It was right, it is my happiness that flowed downward just like my life that is flowing downward toward death.