Before

Everyday is the same. Everyday I am laughed at and bullied by the servants and every night I am tormented by Hiro. What kind of life is this? I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I am afraid one night I will go to sleep and not wake up the next morning. On one hand I am afraid that Hiro will kill me, but on the other one, I welcome it. I relish it.

I want to die so bad. I want to drift in a sea of never ending darkness, where none of this is real. I want to forget this life.

There is one tiny light in this never ending darkness. His name is Li. He is Hiro's right hand man. He is different. He doesn't bully me, in fact he trys to sheild me as much as he can. I am so thankful for his little acts of kindness.

I find myself thinking about him way to much. I know it is dangerous to develop any type of feelings towards him, but I can't seem to help myself. I wish we could escape this life together. I wish we could escape Hiro, but I know he will never let me go. I will ALWAYS belong to Hiro. Always.