Chapter.32.Please Don't Read it.

I will not mind at all.

Absolutely never will.

I only want to see your smile again.

Return to holding your hand.

Even though, I will kill the person you love

In this world.

This is proof of my love for you.

I want to repeat that ...

Even though I sold my soul to that person ...

I will do everything ...

To have you again ...

To come back to see you again ...

(I will write it in the little girl's diary.)

***

Xi is just stunned.

He does not know.

What things have made him say those things.

The things he really didn't want to say. He didn't expect it at all. That tightness in his chest made him say things he really didn't want to say.

Is something wrong with Xi?

Something was wrong with Xi.

However, unfortunately, he did not know it.

For the most time, I've seen.

Many doubts in their eyes.

Doubt and other things that make them not understand.

I really don't know and believe.

Maybe it's because I don't always learn from them.

Don't always learn from seeing, reading, staring and listening to them.

I have only seen them now ,that they are still doubtful and uncertain.

Doubts and hesitance lead them to a way.

The way is dark and does not have a speck of bright light.

After that, they will fall.

Falling into a deep ravine. Then they will realize that they who are called humans are creatures not even superior to me.

Then, why do I have to give this world to them?

The humans?

They will realize that they have made a mistake.

They will realize that mistake after being eaten by lust. Mistake after being eaten by anger.

Then, they feel regret.

"What I just now said ..."

Xi bowed down.

He can't answer the question in his head.

He can't read and hears his heart.

So, he has failed to understand.

The last thing Xi can see is that Li Yuan expresses annoyance and anger before the girl leaves himself at the dinner table.

Sometimes I have thought.

Isn't it better for humans to create a kind of honesty mirror?

Haven't you ever remembered a mirror in the story of Snow White and the seven dwarves?

The mirror is a mirror that reveals honesty and truth.

"Mirrors, who is the most beautiful person in the world? "

Have you ever imagined if the mirror answered with a lie?

Then, there won't be a story of a snow princess and seven dwarves you have often read as your sleep story, right?

The snow princess will not fall asleep and meet her prince.

There will never be a story that ends happily like that.

Although, I say that happiness stories are the way humans entertain themselves.

The ways they create a delusion.

A most beautiful delusion.

Then, I will tell all people that all of them are false.

Everything is fake.

A bad mother and a beautiful princess? Do you really believe that there is such a story?

But something is clear.

And you need to remember.

Unfortunately, humans have no mirror of honesty at all.

It's just a contrived delusion.

A way of deceiving themselves to say that they have an honesty.

So they will not need to do that honesty with themselves.

***

"Sensei ... "

Xi stood in front of Li Yuan's room.

Li Yuan had locked the door of her room after leaving Xi at the dining table.

Li Yuan did not answer Xi's call.

It had been thirty minutes since Xi said the words he shouldn't say.

"Sensei ... Are you inside ...?"

But there was still no answer from Li Yuan.

"* Sigh ... I apologize with my words just now ..."

"Well ... You know after we came home from Xin Lan, I was actually yesterday ... A little drunk ..."

Xi lied to himself.

A little drunk?

All of Xi's sake has been drunk by Lan Lan.

And he said he was drunk?

That was Xi's answer because he could not answer questions and strangeness in his heart.

A Xi way to answer only by mouth and words.

"... "

"So I will apologize to you ..."

"My words are a bit excessive about ... breasts ... flat and so on ..."

"Well ... You already know that ... I have been overdoing something a bit ..."

"I ... so really regret my words ..."

Xi always feels guilty feelings for the girl.

However, he did not know the reason, why would he always end up apologizing to Li Yuan?

I have no idea...

I had thought that Xi had not yet realized.

That little pieces in his heart were broken by Chu Yana and Yang Jie, accidentally collected by the girl, Li Yuan.

The same piece of the past.

The pieces made him feel it all.

But he won't know. He will never understand. Because I made him forget.

The pieces are rearranged when Xi cries in the arms of Li Yuan.

Li Yuan's piece had covered a little of the hole and wound in his heart.

Even though I said that the pieces were not new pieces ...

However, the pieces still look rather fragile. So, Xi doesn't know and realize that.

That there had been a picture of Li Yuan for a long time in a new piece.

I have seen the same story.

Repeatedly.

Again and again.

Until I'm bored and make new stories.

Write and write again.

Repeat and repeat it again.

So, I gave the name [Restart]

Then, later one day I will charge the little girl.

Take everything that I should have.

Because the little girl just wants to answer the feelings of the man who once loved her.

Xi knows that Li Yuan would not open it.

In fact, when Xi tried to pull on the handle on the door and he already knew Li Yuan would not forgive him. Because the door was locked from the inside.

So, Xi just sighed.

"Sensei, I'll go back to the dorm ..."

"I guess…"

"I have thought that I will do what you asked before ..."

However, there was still no voice from Li Yuan.

So Xi thinks of leaving.

"Sensei ... I'll go back to the dorm ..."

He never know it..

" So ... I'll just say goodbye ... be careful when you back to your hometown,Sensei…"

When Xi is about to leave.

Li Yuan suddenly opened the door of the room.

She called Xi.

"Beloved student?"

Li Yuan smiled.

Her smile is so sweet.

The appearance is still the same.

She is Li Yuan.

The Little girl.

Girls who live from the past.

-Why are you smiling?

Xi can only complain in his head.

"I already know that my beloved student will do this ... * Teheee ..."

LI Yuan poses like cute girl characters in anime and manga.

Then Li Yuan smiled even more happily than the previous smile.

Her pointed white fangs had been seen at the corners of her lips.

The smile is the smile of the little girl.

Xi just nodded.

Xi also smiled.

One reason makes him feel happy.

He was happy that Li Yuan still wanted to hear and see him.

However, there was something that had stuck in his mind.

That thing is.

-Why?

I have seen many stories from small quotes in books written by humans.

The books are basically written by many of the types of people.

A writer will make a storyline different.

Will it be a happy ending?

Or will the story be a sad ending?

If you don't want to hear a sad story.

You should not continue reading it.

You will also think again to read this story.

But, do you really not want to see the truth, kid?

Don't you want to see honesty?

Don't you want to read and know about the things that are in the human heart?

Don't you want to understand so that you will keep things that are valuable to you?

However, people who will read the books will continue to enjoy it.

They sometimes smile.

Sometimes they are angry.

Sometimes they feel touched.

And they will cry.

If they see from the truth itself.

They will see the truth in my benchmark ...

But, have you ever read?

That there is a book that tells the truth and ugliness of other people?

The books do exist.

Books that will make people understand.

Letters that will make them understand.

From behind the expressions, they will know later.

However, they will never read the book because they will be afraid.

They were afraid they would understand the book.

They are afraid they will regret it.

They did not expect to read the books.

They did not expect to read the letters.

Never once, they don't want it.

But, their hearts say ...

They want to know what other people feel.

The same as you want.

The same as you feel.

You also don't want to hurt by telling the truth from behind the relationship.

So they will lie. Just like the little girl did.

Lying to get love from her past.

So that the little girl will cover up the parts of the person she loves and has loved her.

Then, the story will put a fake smile on the face of an innocent little girl.

Cover up, feeling sad, regret, anger and suffering that the little girl has experienced.

So, people believe that the little girl will be fine ...

Please don't read it.

***

Last Warning from Author

I already gave a hint from a strange title.

In this story I will not tell you what you imagine as a flower garden.

This story is a story that criticizes all the thoughts of each person in the real world.

Hatred, anger, authenticity, falsehood and many other things that do exist and are real.

There will be death.

There will be tears.

There will also be doubts.

Because this story is not a story about a beautiful flower garden.

This story is my criticism of humans.

What is written from the things that humans have.

From what humans feel.

The falsehood they display.

But, in this story you will know other people hearts.

Will be know.

That the human heart is more complicated than what you think.

You will know the truth.

That the human heart is not clear.

Enjoy emotions as a human being.

(ERAANFAIRCHILD)