Chapter.23. Mask of tranquility

"Then, what did the man do? Didn't he suffer so much after his father died?"

The boy was curious about the continuation of the story.

The man shook his head.

"I am not telling you that the suffering that humans feel is worthy of redemption of all their sins ... I remember when I played a beautiful song for Him I felt thrilled and happiest. But, the Creator is not as you think ... "

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Chu Yana POV

My footsteps stopped at the University Women's Dormitory. Lin Yi had previously accompanied me to the hospital. She doesn't know the news about my pregnancy. I hope no one knows this.

I remembered the last time I met Xi Yang, I always put on the same mask. The mask was a mask of the falsehood of the betrayal I had done so far.

Do I have to bear it now?

Why am I so idiot? Why am I had an affair with Yang Jie? Why do I betray the person I love most? Why did I betray the person who trusted me the most? We have started something beautiful, but I have betrayed him. Is this what people call Karma? It has cursed me ... All falsehood ... Is there a redemption for me? Can I escape all this? I hope the time returns before my betrayal begins.

I don't want to be consumed by my lust. I don't want to be persuaded by the seduction of Yang Jie. I want to go back to the starting point.

"Little Yan?"

I heard a girl's sweet voice beside the corridor in front of my room.

"Professor LI? What are you doing here?"

I was a little surprised to find Professor LI Yuan standing behind me. She wore clothes I didn't normally see, they were a white canal and a long boot to the knees. I usually see Teacher Li Yuan wearing an office shirt.

Li Yuan shook her head.

"I'm having business with one student in this dormitory, do you live here ...?"

I nodded.

Li Yuan and I are not close. However, every time I see Li Yuan I feel that my teacher is a very kind person. She paid attention to all her students at the university, besides she was a genius teacher she was also a beautiful teacher. It cannot deny her is pure beauty.

I knew Li Yuan through our brief introduction two years ago. Xi Yang introduced me to Li Yuan.

She is an Ojou-same of a conglomerate family in Shanghai, she's a smart, beautiful and elegant woman. She is a form of perfection that even surpasses me thousands of times. I'm a little jealous when comparing myself to Li Yuan. She is my inferiority. I hate to admit it. Even when she had a good relationship with Xi, I was a little jealous. What if someday Xi Yang will turn away and no longer love me? What if he will switch and fall in love with Li Yuan? I can't imagine about it. But, one day when I doubted everything about the love we had, Xi Yang managed to convince me. He said that Li Yuan was probably the most beautiful woman he had ever met in his life, but his heart had chosen to put me there.

I'm happy about that. I am glad that Xi Yang said something that made me believe, believing that he would not betray me, believing that he would forever love me. However, I've betrayed everything ... Everything he entrusts to me, all the love and longing he has. I've been guilty. My mistake took me like. A fetus will destroy everything of the ignorance I have done so far. I don't want it. I want to stay with him.

I doubt Xi Yang will accept me and the prospective baby that I have results from my betrayal. What should I do ... Do I have to abort my fetus? I'm afraid if I abort this fetus I will be like a murderer. I don't want to be a murderer. I also feared I died during an abortion. What should I do?

Can I fix everything I have destroyed?

"Is there something you think, Little Yan …?" Li Yuan looked curiously at me. She seemed to see all the anxiety I had.

I shake my head. I don't want she to know about it.

It's fine if people don't know about my pregnancy.

Yeah ... I'm sure of that. I will hide it.

"Professor? Are you interested in entering my room?"

My advice is to Li Yuan, I don't think it's polite to talk in the corridor. She smiles and nodded.

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The two women sat in the room, the room was spacious.

In the room, there is at it paints least a two-story bed in white and several rooms are a small kitchen for cooking in the north, a bathroom and a large closet and mirror.

There is a study table that is wide enough and two chairs. At least two if you look at the condition of the room, there were two people who inhabited the room, Chu Yana and Lin Yi. It serves two cups of tea on top of the tray.

The aroma of two cups of green tea filled the room, the aroma soothed the people who enjoyed it, at least the two people wanted to chit-chat and relaxed, even though Chu Yana was a disturbed person now, but she had covered about her pregnancy. So, she must be calm. The girl is wearing a new mask; the mask is the calm that covers her fear. The Fear of not loved by the person she loves the most, the fear of disappointment from the person who loves her. She was afraid if the two of them broke up.

She was afraid if Xi Yang refused because the sin had already been fruitful, the fruit would taste bitter and would make anyone who ate it die.

"This room is pretty good ... I have never lived in a dorm, but the atmosphere is pleasant ..."Praise Li Yuan while looking around the room.

"I'm happy about Professor likes the atmosphere of the room ... However, I don't think Professor never lived in a dormitory ..."

Li Yuan just nodded, She smiled slightly.

"Yes, I have never lived in a kind of dormitory and the type. Usually, my father or mother will give me a house near to the location I went to college ... Sometimes I go back to Shanghai if I feel a little lonely ..."

Li Yuan, who has divorced parents, does not live permanently in one place. Sometimes she lives in Shanghai at the residence of the Li Family with her father, sometimes she lives in Hong Kong where the Wei family lives with her mother. She had thought it was not fun at all, She always moved from one area to another she had difficulty making friends. Only a few months living somewhere, she didn't have a friend at all. People praised her as a genius girl, but she felt it was worthless. People praised her beauty, but it all made her think beauty didn't give her happiness it was just a picture to be seen by people. There is nothing special about it, she wants to find a friend who can understand about her, the same person as that man.

The person who always gave her a smile was most valuable to her, even though the man was in pain for the betrayal that Li Yuan had done. The man still wanted to make Li Yuan smile, the man still made Li Yuan happy, the man sacrificed everything for the person he loved the most. It was the sincerity she had witnessed so far. Even a long sleep will not erase all that calm memories. Memories of betrayal that have been done, memories of how she refused to accept him. All these are the forms of the sanctity of the love that man has, it is eternal. Even though, only that girl remembers it.

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The most beautiful mask is a mask they call tranquility in the human mind.

The mask was so beautiful; they covered all the fears, sadness, and misery they experienced.

The mask is sweet, beautiful and so bright if people only see the expression of the mask wearer.

They did not know behind the mask were sometimes frightened faces, anxious faces, faces of misery, faces of sadness, faces of pretense they displayed.

Nobody knows the human heart.

The human heart is very difficult to read.

They smile when they cry.

They cry when they smile.

It was the masks that made me fall into this world.

Tells everything since I was thrown away by him.

A story of love, happy stories and tragedy stories.

I've seen all that.

I've read all of that for you.

From the betrayal of Adam and Eve to God,

Till Romeo and Juliet's silly story.

And sad story of Anatasia Rumanov .

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Author's note

Here the novel writer will say some word, maybe I will updates this story every two days. First, I was in the field practice. So, I will update some of the chapters that I have completed before. I asked my brother to post it here, he used several translator machines on the internet, so, I hope there aren't many mistakes there. I have also asked my parents to give me a little fund to upgrade my Grammarly to premium, but they asked me to get an achievement index of 3.5. So, I think I'll try a little here.

Maybe in the future, I will add some information in the future as a footnote.

This is information why Chu Yana was afraid of abortion, based on research from 25 million people who have unsafe abortions. The mortality rate is also close to 30%. Pregnant woman's death is caused by unsafe abortion. It is located in most Asian, African and Latin American regions. It's very unfortunate indeed that the numbers of pregnancies out of wedlock some young women have to abort their wombs, then what about the results of the marital infidelity. I thought it would be very bad if a wife pretended to her husband that their child was the result of their love. I have seen this, at least the time for the children to reach adolescence. The husband caught his wife had an affair with someone else, it happened 14 years, the child turned out to be the result of the wife's infidelity. They divorced, but the husband actually still loved the child who was the result of his wife's infidelity, he cared for and financed the child's education. Now the child has an education in high school. I don't understand at all, maybe the father's time and attention to children is extraordinary.