2 MOVING ON

I wake up to the Instagram notification sound that echoed in the room. It was 10 pm, the apartment I live in with my parents deadly silent accompanied with pitch-black darkness. I frantically turn my ringer off and look up to see any signs of movement of my sister sleeping. You see, I share a room with my younger sister and we both sleep on a bunk bed. The worst thing to worry about was if my sister woke up. But with the silent, steady breathing I heard from the top made me forget my worries and opened the Instagram app. The page loading until a picture of grey wood appeared.

I 잘 다녀와 I

That's what I read on my screen. Those four words made from hair, a gigantic heart placed at the beginning of the sentence. The sentence basically means "Take care," but I knew something was up. This is because the sentence also means to take care of something that you're doing and come back safely.

I silently creep up to my laptop, the dark plastic cover found by my fingertips. I pull it towards me as the charger plopped off and literally dive back into bed. I quickly type up his name, as fast as I could.

I Lee Hyun Woo. I

That's his name. Lee Hyun Woo. I take a deep breath and enter, my eyes widening with the results that first appeared.

I [TRENDING] Lee Hyun Woo Officially Enlisted In The Military.

Prepare To Say Goodbye To Lee Hyun Woo, The Actor Is Entering Military This Upcoming February.

Lee Hyun Woo New Year 'Present' Upsetting Fans. I

And so forth, my greatest fear has finally risen. Lee Hyun Woo, the actor I truly admire, is doing the compulsory two-year enlistment into the military. I didn't know what to think about this news. To know about this upsets me a little. I ball my hand into a fist and rest my chin. I sigh. Out of all days and years, he chose to go now. In February. At the start of a new year.

Out of nowhere, a small pain is felt on my heart. A feeling I remember so clearly. The feeling of something or someone squeezing my heart, but a pain where I can still breathe. What is that feeling?

My field of vision blurs, watery droplets trickling down my cheek. As I go back and look at photos of Lee Hyun Woo smiling, I couldn't help but cry even more. To the extent that I made a silent wail. I see... this is sadness I'm feeling, isn't it? I laugh at myself for being so pathetic. Crying over someone who doesn't even know you or knows that you exist is truly pathetic. But so what? No-one can tell me who to like, laugh to, cry to. So why does that even matter if I cry about the news of this person? After all, I wouldn't be able to see any more films or shows with him in them. But there's more to that.

I'll truly miss that gigantic smile that he puts on when he heartily laughs. That is a true smile. Nothing materialized or fake. It shows his true emotions of Pure Happiness.

I shut my laptop and place it carefully on my desk. I slump back on my bed, crawl underneath the covers of my warm blanket and place the top of my blanket on my head. So... Lee Hyun Woo really is going to the military, huh? In that case,

"I guess I'll have to move on.." I murmur.

I sigh again. Talking about my thoughts is one of the bad habits I have picked up from childhood and stuck with me ever since. Same goes with singing songs out loud in public when I think that I'm alone. Speaking about music...

I grab my earphones and plug them into my phone. I really need a voice to calm me down. Any song, any voice that I know that I like. Just something for me to possibly forget. I tap on the Itunes Music App and automatically went to shuffle. A piano's intro calmly playing its keys as I smirk. More drops of tears streaming down my face as I hear his voice.

One Thing by Lee Hyun Woo.

At this rate, the feeling of Moving On will never be accomplished.

Not really.