This is not a story.

Every time i see him my heart flips. Is this even supposed to happen? is it even normal? It's been 3months now and i can't seem to get him out of my mind. I think of him and i'm sad. I'm really sad cause i know i can't have him. He isn't mine to have and isn't going to work—I know. But the fact that the choice to have him back in my life just by saying the word and he'll be all mine makes it even more heartbreaking. The fact that he hasn't really done anything bad against me and i let this go breaks my heart all the time. i didn't just do it cause i wanted to. i was happy. indeed, i was truly happy, but i knew in my heart that it wouldn't work—he wasn't mine to have, he wasn't meant for me. Oh! but i really do love him. I try every time to forget him, but it's harder every time. Some days it looks like i'm making progress, other times it seems i'm back to square one. I wonder if this is ever going to end, will i get to ever completely forget him or am i stuck with this forever?