1 The Memoirs of Us

"In the name of the father, and in the son and in the holy spirit... Amen - Good night everyone,and Goodbye." everyone said as we all finished the night prayers and as always everyone was ready to sleep. I close the light and open the lamps that was attached each side of the wall. the night is not silent nor good it's gloomy and senti. even I feel kinda weird I try my best to checked all the sleeping softies in their bed..

I was about to go when someone caught my attention.A girl who cries hugging her pillow. She's pale and thin thou you can still see the big humps in her tummy. She's Aly the teen age girl who was about to give birth next month. She's still crying and hating herself. she doesn't need to tell her story to make me understand her feels. As I always see her I can say I feel knife like it stab me inside my heart. She always cry when she can't sleep because of thinking too much, depression tries to invade her again into her soul.I walk to her and slowly touches her long brown hair her cries slowly fading but I know she's still awake and not okay. she's fragile but not weak she's quite strong but afraid, She had this soft and innocent look adorable and lovely that's the right word to describe her.

" Aly.." I said as I slowly patted her hands. she slowly turn her head and look at me. " Do you want a milk to help you sleep?.it is good for the baby too" I said as I gave her a smile and assurance that it will help.

" How about I- "I'm fine Novice Rose, I.. I did just realized how I badly wreck my life. I'm a black sheep and deserve to die but why, does how many times I try.. the Lord still save a sinner like me?. "she suddenly said as she tiredly look at me. she was about to cry again but I stop her as I hold her hand and squeeze it gently.

"The Lord is good all the time, and you are not a sinner Aly. but even thou you did ungrateful things dying is not a solution nor a punishment for that.

Everything happens for a reason Dear, and that reason is for you to have a chance and a new life." I smiled as I wiped her flowing tears in her eyes.

" Believed in him and you will see everything clearly." I said as I softly touches her hair.

" You think so Novice Rose?..you don't even know what I've done and what I've been through. So why do you sounds so sure about it?.- she said while calming herself.

" You maybe bad for your own opinion but our world is big and there are still worse to worse people than you-" I smiled as I said those things. " You know I have a great story if you still have doubts about yourself and God. and I'm sure you will love it." I said as I fixed myself while laying beside her.

She just looked at me while I can see questions are running through her mind. I inhale and exhale.trying to calmed myself as I give her a smile.

" You know Aly, There's this girl I did know so far, She's pretty like you, strong like you, and a almost Perfect one not until ... " I paused for a bit as I gently touches her hair.My heart beats like in a double beat as I feel how the wind blows like it whisper to my ear. I don't want to admit but the Feelings is still the same. Telling a story to give her a lesson was always effective, but this time it's kinda strange.. " Are you okay Novice Rose?.are you alright?" she said as she check my expression deeply. I suppose to be the one who tell her that line, it's just weird that She sounds someone I know before. I looked at her before I nod. even I was afraid I choose not to show it. because I believe it will really help her.

she was gonna speak again when I interfere her words.

"Few years ago...-