10 Chapter 9
I am in my death bed right now but I will never strip in front of these monsters even if it cost my life .
I slightly look up at him , at his handsome features I cannot help myself but to think How can someone be this much cruel.
Was he always like this ?.
The questions are rising on their own in my head but I don't want to stop them because I do want to know the truth.
" I will never strip even If it costs my life. You can shoot me but what will you get by doing that?
Nothing hah?What do you get by killing people? Athurity?
If you think they give you athurity out of respect then may be you are wrong?. May be they are just scared of you? . They are obeying you Today but they can never make themselves obey you with loyalty! They will leave you when you want their help the most ." I said almost containing myself from crying.
After some moments of silence and both of us looking at each other and me with time intervals looking at his gun and waiting for him to shoot me .
He never did . His eyes were showing emotions I am not familiar with.
I think he had a terrible past .
He was not like this from the beginning. I can tell this from deep ,deep down .
All my dreams are crushed by this man . He took away my chances to find someone for me .
I don't even know if I will even be able to walk out from here or I will die inside of this house.
This house will never be some one's home .
Our staring moment is not to stay for long.
Suddenly sounds of claps can be heard from an old couple.
I didn't notice them before. Hell what I am talking about I didn't notice anyone except this man in front me .
By the looks they are familiar to this man I have noticed or to be correct he is familiar with them.
They came towards me amusement is Clear in their eyes.
The old man cleard his throat and said " well If you care so much about my son here.why won't you become that loyal person to him ? Who will stay with him whenever he needs one . It's Clear. ( He then looked at others and smile at them ) . This women here is soon to be my son's bride . Take good care of her".
The room went silent for some moments. I am going to the world full of darkness I am falling somewhere and when I will reach the ground I will be getting lost.
That surface will break me into pieces.
I can no longer feel anything or can gain courage to look at him.
" Please don't do this to me . " I said almost in a whisper but I make sure they heard me.
I look at them but they moved away.
I was picked from the floor by some maids who then started dragging me to a room .
I will never be able to walk away or I will never see the light again.
Allah Oh My God! please help me.
I pleaded while looking up . I have given myself to you from this very moment.
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I-I cannot believe myself.
I cannot believe my reality.
The sound of wind hitting on windows or the rays of light coming inside.
Day or night doesn't matter because I don't know where am I .
Will I be able to go back in life or This will be it .
I cannot accept it.
Tears and tears that's all I have seen from that day.
From that horrible moment.
I am not power less.
I never was! but it's useless.
How can you use sword when you don't have one?.
My case is same.
How can you hack something when you don't have any device on you or with you.
Maids are all around me traying to make me a bride.
When I don't wanna be.
This skin long dress with the desiging of royals, these hijab jewelries and my painted face.
Looking at myself in the mirror brings back memories.
My words to my family and my love for an unknown person.
I wanted to be happy on my marriage day but then, this is not what I want!
I cannot run away they will kill my family.
I cannot kill myself it's forbidden.
May be I cannot live it's decided.
After completing their work , they left .
For moments I look into myself, for my own emotions are no where to be seen.
After that ,the father of my groom came in telling me to come with him he has made hell and he wanted to throw me in .
Sure he will never say it openly.
I will never forget these moments of my Life because I died without them knowing.
I will never live again.
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I am in my new room and my marriage ended hours ago .
I am still in my marriage dress.
I cannot make myself to tear it or throw it .
My hands tremble. What have I done ?.
Giving my life to a monster but then I was the one who told him that he wasn't.
I can only thank God on the fact that he hasn't come yet or maybe he don't consider me.
Maybe he will not come.
Only this hope can made me smile .
I walked up to my balcony looking at the beautiful view.
I am in one of his villas.
The scenery from here only speaks about beauty.
This scenario can't be forgotten.
I got merge in my own thoughts that I didn't realize someone was standing behind me .
It's just that when the person breath in my kneck I jumped away.
Placing my hands on my chest traying to control my breath.
I look up at him and after moments of silence realization hit me hard.
" What are you doing here?. Get Out!". I said looking at him daring him to come any closer.
He didn't reply for seconds and then said
" Just want to remind you. You will be nothing. You was never and you will never be anything or anyone to me. I will go to my misstrsses and I will do what I want. Don't come in front of me . Your face makes me vomit.
Savage and Golden Digger that's all you are to me .
I have never seen a girl who can jump into a world of Mafias for what? Money!
You disgust me".
Without looking at me he left after that but his words shows how much he meant them.
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This dreadful night isn't going to end very soon and to my surprise I just fell on my bed and fall asleep may be.
Wishing when I wake up it will all turn to be a dream or to be true , a nightmare .
Just when I thought that I can pass this night by sleeping and the sleep is waiting for me the voice of my bedroom door makes my heart jump again but this time I pretend to be asleep.
After some seconds the sounds of footsteps coming closer to me, makes my whole body numb with fear.
I can no longer move .
Who is in my room at this time of hour?.
Why is this person coming close to me ?.
What if this person is HIM!.
I jump out of my bed with a peircing scream when I found someone's hand on my shoulder.
My screams were numb by his other hand and he pinned me to the nearest wall.
" W-What do you think you are doing?". I said almost in a wishper.
" I am , my wife I am here to make our marriage night a memory ". He said with no emotions or may be I can not see them because he is smirking.
" You forced me I will never be your WIFE! ". I almost shouted the last part but I guess that was a mistake because his dark eyes become more darker and he pressed himself on me .
I get scared of his behavior suddenly and I tried shouting for help but he placed his hand on my mouth muffling my screams and released a dark and deep chuckle.
After some moments when he realized I have stopped shouting he released my mouth and waited for me to say something.
" Let me go!. Why are you doing this to me?. You said yourself that I am nothing and will never be anything to you then what is the meaning of this ?. Just let me be the Savage and ignore me .I will be happy and will be grateful!". I was like shouting the starting part but to the end my voice was barely a whisper.
He look at me and it looks like he is taking in my words and after a moment suddenly his hand rested on my left thigh and another on my right cheek.
If I thought that my heart was jumping before then it is about to explode inside me now.
I am going to die .
His lips suddenly landed on mine and the electricity jolted my body .
I was not able to breath anymore .
Lots of emotions came crashing down at once and I tried to push him away but he only tightened his hold .
After trying for some moments, I gave up and kissed him back .
My first kiss he took ,my first kiss just like this .
I fisted my hand when I felt him loosen his hold and reached his face with the full force and hit him.
He moved back looking shocked and angry at the same time .
Oh God help me !.
