1 Volume 01 - Prologue: Just How Far You'll Go?

Disclaimer:

I'll say this now, this novel, although I'm not sure about the first volume, I can assure you that I'm going to tackle sensitive topics in here.

This is going to be dark and erotic fuhahahaha... Lovely~

So proceed with an open mind and care.

No worries though. I'll be sure to put prior warnings if there's something “beautiful” in the chapter.

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Humans are technically a biological robot. And why am I calling them a robot? Surely we are different to the robot you may be thinking right now.

But fundamentally, it's all the same. The only difference is that humans are carbon-based while those robots are mechanical. Humans are also completed and functional with sentience unlike robots.

But the two are the same in terms of how they act. Robots have circuits with programs and logic gates embedded in them.

However, humans are the same. Their circuit is their brain and their program is their psyche.

But what's the core program of humans?

It's desire.

Humans are compelled by desires. That's their fundamental program. Everything else revolves around them.

Everything stems from desire: the desire to exist, to love, to fuck, and to be famous. And in fact, some of these desires are hardwired to their genes such as desire to eat or basically their instincts.

So if you know what someone wanted, it's easy to influence them. Because they won't be able to go against their programs, unless they reprogram themselves different to it.

But is it that easy? You can't even quickly get over your cyber addiction or move on from your pathetic ex who suddenly ghosted you unreasonably.

But the greatness of a desire depends on how much you value it.

Our default desire is to live or to exist. In this world of peace, we're privileged to easily fulfill this desire compared to the past.

So there comes our second in the line desire— At this point, it varies.

Who knows what you wanted next?

But let's say you desire power and you derive this sense of power through having a huge amount of money— which will make it your third desire.

Over time, you became rich.

But a terrorist found you as a target. I mean, you're rich.

What will you do: Sacrifice your hard-earned money or die?

Well of course, you'll choose your life. That's your first priority after all.

Unless having money is the dominant desire you have— your first desire.

Don't you sometimes see people with high pride begged someone they treat as inferior once their life are threatened by them?

But do you need to sacrifice your other desires for your first desire?

Well it depends on you.

The whole world is filled with billions of living sentient humans. And each of these humans have their own desires.

And sometimes, these desires clashes to one another.

People with similar desires will ally themselves to one another, while they go against those that are conflicting with their desire.

And this is why, coexistence can't last for long once the subjects in question have different desires.

So whose desire should prevail?

Should your desire for peace win against the desire for chaos?

Should your desire to be the one chosen by your crush win against the desire of another?

Well well of course it all depends on you. To your ability I mean.

Having ‘good’ desire doesn't mean you should win. Your desire being for the good of the world should be the one that should win against selfserving desire of others.

The universe determine things through comparison. In this sense, who's more capable to exert more effort and energy for their desire.

Are you capable enough to fulfill your desire? Do you have the strength to get what you want? Or perhaps you're just a pathetic scum with no power or whatsoever.

Whoever or whatever has the strength will prevail.

Like for typhoons.

You don't want to have your house destroyed yet you evacuated anyway. Your life is your priority right? And you have no power to go against typhoon. You are weak. So you have no other options but to run and give up your house.

But if you can control the weather or something akin to that, you don't need to sacrifice your house because your first priority— your life is safe. So you have leverage for other desires.

But of course human energy is limited.

So when we do important things and our energy is insufficient, we would sacrifice something with lower priority to compensate for that lack of energy.

So it's important to know what you really desire.

It's important to be aware of our superficial desires and profound desires— which is deeply rooted to our self.

One of these profound desires is love. Or to be precise— to love and be loved.

Love is subjective and in fact, it's a general term for many form of affection. It doesn't really have an objective meaning. Differentiating multiple meanings of love is just a matter of degree now.

As far as I see it, love with the highest degree is when what you consider as ‘your life’ had been replaced by the life of those you love. Apparently, life or existence is the most important thing for living things. So an affection for it will of course be just as important.

When we love somebody, we care for their existence.

So naturally, as of all desires, we will do something for it.

When we love somebody, it will no longer be a matter of capability but will.

We might even sacrifice everything else just for that one desire.

And by doing so, we utilize everything we have and gain a surge of force to compel us.

And one of those people who will do everything for the sake of love is most likely women. They are terrifying when they are overwhelmed by their affection.

Men of course are the same because they're still human with the same desire. But I'm talking about who's more crazy when it comes to love.

Anyway, all I want to say is that women who are in love are really terrifying.

And I'm speaking of it out of first-hand experience.

Why do I say that?

Well, look at my current state: Wrapped in chains on a chair with my feet and wrists handcuffed.

Moreover, my bladder is already about to burst. It hurts and I want to take a pee.

But will she listen?

She's in a state of hysteria mumbling to herself with a bloodshot eyes after all.

“I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. Don't leave me… I-It's— IT'S BECAUSE OF HER! IT'S HER FAULT! THIS IS ALL HER FAULT!! I could have succeeded in winning you back.. b-but she.. SHE JUST HAVE TO GET IN THE WAY!!”

Oh hell bloody hell. She's scary.

“Eli-chan you're just misunderstanding—”

“NO I'M NOT!”

“Alright I get it. But put the knife down.”

“!!”

*Clang!*

She looks like she's extremely shock and scared after realizing that she almost stabbed me.

Eli-chan is trembling when she runs towards me.

“This is her fault... I wouldn't need to do this if not because of her... She's such a rotten bitch...”

With her shaky weak voice and shivering body, Eli-chan hugs me tightly.

“Mark.. I don't want to hurt you but I need to do this.. I don't want you to leave me... Just endure for a bit... After few months of isolation.... I'm sure you'll lose feelings for her..”

She clasps my face looking at me with really sad eyes. Her face is pale and her eyes are swollen. I'm starting to feel uncomfortable seeing her like this.

“I know I'm worthless... and I know all of this is my fault... but... Mark... I'm better than her... that's for sure... Even if I'm not... I'll replace her... Please allow me to... I'll make myself better... I'll answer all your need... I'll give you anything you want... My body.. my soul... I'll do whatever you wanted .. And aren't I more useful than her? I'll do my best... Just don't leave me please... Please... I can't take it...”

You wanted to be with me so you're willing to offer yourself. I see now that it's what you're greatest desire. And of course you're willing to do anything for it.

All of us are just like that anyway.

But a give-and-take relationship? Well, everything is like that anyway. And that's actually better, because the best relationship in this world is mutualism.

Because it's desire that drives us. And the desire for pleasure is innate. So if we gain something from giving something, why not?

Those who says unconditional love ask for nothing are merely making up an illusion to give their love a special meaning.

It's actually fine but really, it's also a give-and-take relationship if you look at it in deeper level.

Whatever. They're free to think what they want.

Eli-chan giving me her all is her way to keep me— her desire. And I don't think she'll stop at this.

This is why she locked me up in here. Because she loves me and she doesn't want to lose me.

But how about you?

Just how far you'll go just to be with someone you love?

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Voracity:

╚Because I want to write a good novel, I'll sometimes be coming back to the published chapters to edit and modify.

I hope I don't cause any confusion.

Due to me being a human with limited abilities, don't hesitate to comment whatever flaw you find.