Life.

It's their own life, who are you to spend time with

You are just playing a boyfriend role in her life. You may or may not become her future husband. How you can take decisions in her life. Who gave you right to do that. If you are not able to earn something on your own, how you will get respect or how you can think that you are eligible for whatever you want. I used to leave my interviews to drop her and pick from exam centres and if i have some work to do for my family or go to meet them, i used to skip those things to spend time with her. Even she used to do sometimes. I gave time for her by giving priority to her and least important to other things in my life including my career, it will effect one's life only. Nothing will happen to her career. She will loose you for this reason and she will be hurt. And what about you ?? You will loose your life, career, love , mostly the trust build on you by ur family and ur girlfriend. I don't know what's happening in my life. I was not like this before, i had big dreams, i wanted to study abroad and start working over there and earn lot of money and take care of my parents and fulfill my dream house nd business. I don't know y i became like this. I never thought that i will least focus on my career. Unknowningly it happend in my life. Ididn't even realised that it was happening. I don't have the time stone to go back and do it all right. I know that my dad will not agree at any cost for my love marriage. I told her these things in the early time when she proposed me.

But she replied can't you give a chance to our love, she said. I thought that, after i get a good job, and when I'm able to live on my own i can ask my dad. But now what happened,? He didn't agreed. Instead of that he blackmailed me that he will die if I do a inter-caste marriage. But now it became very hard for us to live apart. Whenever i think of loosing her in my life for sometime my heart stops and I can't do anything. She also have the same pain of loosing me. But She can live for giving her parents happiness. Because their parents are the best in the world. And they doesn't know that she is loosing her best part in life. The reason why we don't tell her parents was, if they come to know that she will be loosing me, they can't see her in sorrow. So we had a word of not saying to them. They are the best. But i cannot live anymore. I will be like a living deadbody. This no one can understand in my family. Necause they live in a society where their pride and caste is important that child happiness. They do think that I'm over acting by watching movies and all. This is what their understanding levels are. Yes they want me to be happy, but their pride comes before that. Bcz she is not of my caste. If i marry her their pride will go down. 😢. Is this making any sense? It's all bullshit. Have to kill those people who invented this caste system.