–– "ambivalence"

–– Ambivalence (n.) the state of having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone. "I want you to look at me. I want you to pay attention to me. I want you to praise me, to say that I did well. I want you to love me and only me. "I hate you and I hate this world. But it's too sad for me to leave it alone, unattended in the hands of greedy humans filled with sins and hatred. "But then again, I'm not one to say that, am I?" Life was never fun. I'm ambivalent about the importance of my breath. Was it supposed to be worth smiling for? Was it supposed to be worth living for? I'm perplexed. What is it that I'm supposed to live for aside from your words? "I wanted to say 'I'm sorry' for a long, long time..." –– || DISCLAIMER(S) || •⠀This book is not completed and is still serializing. •⠀The picture I used for the cover is not mine, it belongs to its artist(s). If you are the artist(s) and you want me to take the picture down, I will gladly do so~! Or you can perhaps notify me to give you proper credit(s)! •⠀This is a work of fiction, however, it is based on a real-life experience. If there are any similarities in organizations' names or a person's name, they are all purely accidental. •⠀This story will be updated when I have time, based on the server time (17.00 GMT+8). •⠀Under the stage of editing: typos, grammar mistakes, miscast of words, etc. I apologize if you become confused or even received so many notifications for it. –– || WARNING(S)|| •⠀Mentions of blood, killing, death, etc. will be up ahead. If you are uncomfortable with the mention or even the thought of self-harm, then please don't read this book. •⠀Some lines of the characters might be disturbing to some (demons' lines, maniacal laughter, mentions of killing, etc.).  •⠀Please mind these warnings before reading the story. You have been warned. •⠀If you're starting to feel sick when reading for too long or staring at your screen for a while, please stop reading immediately as your health is more important. –– You can reach me out on: DISCORD Xierryne#9968 –– Started: September 22nd, 2021 Completed: ??? ––