my journey

I don't know what I m doing? kyunki jo karti hu usse log to khus ho jaate h but mai andar hi andar ghut jaati hu. mai sbke situations ko smjhne ki koshish karti hu but koi mujhe nhi smjhta. bht kuchh mentally maine saha h bht baar hurt hui hu but jo hurt karta h usko lgta hi nhi ki usko meri activity se bura lga hoga. "am I 👎" 😭. ab smjh aata h jo jaisa dikhta waisa to bilkul nhi hota. mere se har baar log puchte h ki ladko ko lekar tum itni negative kyu ho. are कंबख्तों mai kya karu viswas karna chahti hu but tumlog viswas karne hi nhi dete.in every situation mai 2nd choice bnkr reh jaa rhi hu. jb log dukhi hote h to mujhe bht yaad karte h. but jb mai hoti hu to koi nhi hota h.i think I m very unlucky ☹Noone understand me.