34 I DID NOT REGRET IT

[ELLIS' POV]

It's all thanks to the fact that he is my brother and he's the only one I love. I looked at my t-shirt which is a mess and I removed it and wear a new one from my things.

I got out of the bathroom and went to Eros which is laying on the sofa comfortably. He's already wearing new pairs of clothes including his slacks from his meeting which I avoided looking at his... um, you know. Anyway, I already clean his face and neck, and to his arms and feet.

This is the second time that I took care of him like this and it made me feel happy and contented just thinking about it.

But, I'm still hoping that he can continue what he is going to say. He's about to say something about his feelings but because of the vomiting situation, it got delayed and then he fell asleep.

"What are you going to say, Ros?" I whisper.

He moves and I see his eyes moving as well, then he slightly opened it.

"El?" He softly calls.

"Ros, are you okay? Do you feel better now?"

"My head hurts." He says and he's trying to sit and I helped him.

"I told you that if you're going to drink, you have to let me come with you."

"Sorry, I can't say no to the Chairman." He has his hands over his head, rubbing it slowly.

His cheeks are still red and his eyes are still slightly open, he's looking adorable right now.

Oh, my heart.

"But you can say no to me?" I sarcastically answered and he looks at me.

He pats my head, "Why do you look so adorable, El?"

Oh, my heart. Again.

Why do you do that, Eros? You know you are wrong and then you change the subject. YOU ARE MAKING MY HEART MELT!

"So, are you sober now?" I asked.

"I think so?"

I held up five fingers in front of him and asked, "How many do you see?"

"Three?"

"You're kidding, right?"

He laughs, "It's five. I'm feeling a little okay now."

"I'll bring you some water," I replied but before I go, he holds my hand and I stopped.

I looked at him and he's already looking at me, "El, I think I didn't continue what I said earlier about my feelings..."

Wait. Is he... Oh my goodness!

"W-what feelings?" But suddenly, I got shy.

"I thought that I could stop it or... I could protect it, you know. I mean, right now, I want to treasure you more. More than brothers."

"M-more than brothers?" I whisper.

"Um... the truth is, whatever I do, I still can't stop loving you. This is not as brothers but, more than you think."

I couldn't move a muscle. My surroundings are clear and quiet. I don't hear anything except his confession. Is this even real? Am I in a dream? Is he that sober?

"We can be brothers but, can I not treat you like one? Instead, can I treat you as a lover?"

Shit. Is he even real? I need to slap myself to see if this is reality.

"W-why did you change your mind? Ros, I... I'm still surprised that you said those things that I wanted to hear for so long, but, I want to know, if this is real, if I'm not dreaming."

He stood up but his eyes are puffy, I don't know if he cried earlier or he's like this because he was drunk, but I'm hoping that this is real and he knows what he's thinking right now.

"You're not dreaming, El." He smiles and touches my cheeks using both of his hands.

"Can I do something crazy?" I say to him.

He looks at me confusingly but I just smile and I think he didn't remember what he said when he first said those words to me and did that to me as well.

He's staying still on the sofa and I slowly move closer to him and gently sits in from of him. He moves his hands on his sides, looking at every move I make.

I held his face and move my face closer to him, and gently puts my lips on his. I'm closing my eyes as he closes his eyes too.

This is the best feeling ever. I have never thought that I could do this to him one more time and it makes me feel so happy.

I let go of the kiss and he looks at me with his adorably red cheeks and he says, "I am sorry for confusing you from the start. I am so sorry that I have kissed you and do things that you can confused you. I am really sorry, El."

"No, it's okay." I smile and I'm still sitting in front of him and I continue, "I'm sorry too, for not telling you that I have a boyfriend, I'm sorry that I lied about it. I really am sorry, Ros. Also, I am sorry that I keep on wanting you to tell me about what happened before even if you can't tell me. I should understand your feelings. I am sorry."

He pats my head and smiles, "I'm sleepy."

"You should go back to sleep."

Suddenly, he wraps his big arms around me and slowly lay me down with him, now, we are facing each other. He closes his eyes and I stare at his face. It's been a while since I got my face too close to his.

I closed my eyes and feeling his warmth touch against my skin, wishing that this is not a dream.

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[EROS' POV]

As soon as I wake up, I could feel like someone is over me, I looked at the person, and it shines onto me and I noticed that the sun is making us wake up, that is why I put my hand in front of his face to not wake him up.

What kind of a man I am to deserve this morning? Memories from last night flashing back on me and it proves that I'm not dreaming and it proves that I'm not drunk.

Ellis.

I can't help it but to smile, I think my cheeks are reddening. Shit. Am I blushing right now? My whole body is shaking and my face is red already! Is it because he's laying beside me?

How come I become so clingy and not in denial over him? Is it because of what the Chairman said to me? Is it because his birthday is coming? Or is it because I just love him and I can't help myself not wanting him?

OR IS IT... ALL OF THE ABOVE?

I didn't realize that I have been staring at him throughout my random thoughts when I see his eyes looking at me.

SAY SOMETHING, EROS!

ANYTHING!

"G-good morning." I panic and he smiles.

"It is good in the morning. No, I mean better. The best." He says.

I looked away and I remove my hand in front of his face and we got up from the sofa.

"Did your arm get hurt?" He asked and I didn't feel anything, is it because he's not that heavy?

"No. Did you sleep comfortably?" I asked.

"Of course. Sleeping next to you feels nice."

I pat his head and smile, "What do you want to eat?"

"You?" He says.

"El, seriously."

"I am serious."

I sigh, "Alright, where do you want to start?"

His eyes widen and his face becomes red. I know him so well that he cannot control his shyness, so I ride to his clingy joke instead.

I chuckle, "I'll order." I see my phone over the table and I grab it.

"You teased me."

"You teased first."

He pouts, "Don't order. I can cook."

"But we don't have food in the-"

"Don't worry, the refrigerator is full."

He did what? He bought ingredients and meats without me knowing? Did I suddenly feel a wifey material to him?

Eros, don't be obvious that you're blushing.

He went to the kitchen and checks the refrigerator and I'm slapping my face to stop the reddening but it becomes redder!

"Ros, what are you doing to your face?"

I stopped when he noticed.

"Um, I'm waking myself up. Anyway, I should get some shower and Griffin might be here." .

He nodded and continues to prepare breakfast while I went to my room to take a shower.

OH MY GOODNESS.

When I'm remembering last night, I asked him to be my lover, did he remembers it? Would he believe it? But he knows I'm drunk last night. Will he... I sigh. I should stop thinking about it. But the thing is, I should have thought about this rather than following the Chairman's rules. I should have followed my feelings and what my heart says, rather than the Chairman's. I should have thought Ellis' feelings, rather than what the Chairman would do. I should have fought it earlier.

But last night, I did not regret those words that came out from my mouth. I love him. I love Ellis so much that I can't control my feelings anymore. I am a coward and stupid for saying that 'We are brothers,' 'You can't fall for me,' or 'I can't reciprocate your feelings.' Everything I have said ate me alive and now, I admitted my feelings for him.

I hope he still remembers last night's confession. Oh, El.

"If he remembers it, it means, that today, is our first day of being lovers," I whisper to myself.

Shit. I cannot believe it. I did tell him.

My face is still blushing and I realized that I'm staring at myself in the mirror from my bathroom.

"I'm happy," I whisper again.

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[ELLIS' POV]

"Shit, shit, shit. It's our first day of being together! Like officially! But is it? I mean, he's sober right? He's feeling okay now and I think he remembers it." I said to myself while jumping up and down and waiting for the eggs to be cooked.

"Should I call him babe? Or baby? Shit, I'm blushing. My cheeks are hot. But not my butt, I mean my real cheeks on my face." I added.

I can't stop smiling.

"Should I just call him hubby?" I whisper and I see the eggs are already overcooked, I turned off the heat and put the eggs on the plate.

"And I will be his wifey."

I will be a good wife to my husband. Or I mean, a hubby to a hubby. This is so cheesy!

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