1 New Year...

I'm Sea...

Its a new year. A new moon in the sky.

I can hear everyone's laughter, fireworks, celebration, musics sounds..But I'm all alone here..

Emotionless bitch, cold blooded, ungrateful bitch, heartless, egoistic, witch these are my name given by my entire family. There are more and will be more added until next new year.

Actually, I have no emotion left in me. Who to blame?? I blame no one but myself for being too fragile for years, for love and trust everyone....End of the day , they named me as a heartless bitch.

Certainly , they are correct.

"Yes,I am heartless..After all that happen to me , my heart really disappeared. I'm breathing, my heart beating, I'm alive but not living. Its more like I'm dead but with a soul".

Its 2.30am now. I was too depth in my thought that I didn't notice everyone left me on rooftop alone. All alone..

In the past, I was too afraid of being alone. Now, loneliness is the one and only thing which is honest to me, loves me and pure to me..

Tonight that moon look so familiar to me..Its gentle look remind me about them..One who killed me and other who got killed by me.

Suddenly, someone hug me from back. I smell a familiar scent.. Its her, my only support and my saviour." My Mumma" <3

She is someone who know me better than anyone.

I wish, I could live with her.But cruel world never gave me that chance. The more I wanted to live with her , the more trouble they gave me...The more I fight, the more they hurt my Mumma.

Only her scent can clam me, comfort me. A scent that can heal me and make my emotion comes out for a second..or else, I nearly forget I am alive.

""she is..was..will be the best thing and only thing that God gifted me..Just for me :)""