" LOVE MAZE "

love? what is love really? I really don't know.

I am an only child and I have been living with my mother for a few years now:

as you may have guessed, my parents have separated, they have always argued a lot, every day they created an argument and then at some point they decided to take two separate paths.

I don't know what love is, after all, I have never known it, maybe my parents' divorce has influenced a lot on the fact that I don't really know the meaning of the word "love" and then I have never had a relationship.

in books we often read that love is such an overwhelming feeling that it changes your life completely, it is a complex of emotions, it is feeling butterflies in your stomach, it is being happy when you see your lover or your girlfriend, love in books seems fake sometimes, because unfortunately in my opinion love in books does not correspond to love in real life.

on the other hand, love in books is so simple, there is always a happy ending, but why wasn't it like that between my parents? in fact, what is love really? if it were something that makes you happy, why did love cause so much suffering in my mother?

I decide to close this book that I just finished reading and put it back in my library.

I'm always a very sunny girl, I love to help others, I try to be there for everyone, but I always tend to hide my true emotions, that is, even when I'm very bad, I always try to smile and be strong, although sometimes it's hard to hide your feelings, isn't it?

Since my childhood, I had a very very strict upbringing, my parents were always very strict with me and they taught me to never be weak and to always show a smile to others, even when you are hurt in the soul.

because of the strict upbringing of my parents, I have always had very few friendships, since they were the ones who decided who I should talk to and who I couldn't talk to, and the nice thing is that even though I received little affection from my parents, I am not cold and detached like them, on the contrary, I consider myself a very very sweet girl and I am happy to have this character.

in spite of everything, my parents have never made me lack anything, they have always given me everything, they work very hard and from this point of view, I am really very proud of them.

" venus, come here, you need to take little jade for a walk."

- that's right, I forgot, I have to take my little dog jade for a walk!

I walk out of my room, close the door, turn off the light and run up the stairs.

"here I am mommy and here I am little jade, it's time to go for a walk."

I put on my shoes and leave the house with my sweet little jade :

jade is a small dog that has become part of my life only a year ago, she is very sweet and very very playful and let's say that it is as if she were my source of happiness.

going for walks here in Seoul is something wonderful: my mother and I and my father used to live in America, but we had to move here to Seoul, South Korea, after my parents' divorce, because my mother has always dreamed of living in the orient, she has always been fascinated by oriental culture and has a degree in oriental languages, including Korean, so here we are.

In the beginning, it was really, really difficult for me to settle down at the university, but with time, I succeeded, in fact, I attend a university for foreign students and every evening my mother gives me Korean lessons: let's say that it was a really radical change.

but if I have to be honest, life here is really wonderful, especially during the spring and also during the summer.

I know that even in America there are skyscrapers, beautiful landscapes, stores, and so on, but Korea, or more precisely Seoul, has something special, I don't know what it is, but it has that extra something that America doesn't have, so living here is really good for my soul.

"jade, jade, stop barking at that other little dog, he didn't do anything wrong to you," I say to jade, as she started barking at another little dog with white fur-like hers.

the owner of this little dog is a tall guy with an almost honey-colored complexion, he has two dimples and you can tell he's a good person.

"excuse me so much if my dog jade has been barking, she can be very restless at times," I say to the boy.

"don't worry, no problem, my little dog's name is monie, he's very quiet he"

I go over to pet little monie and say, "he's really very very beautiful!"

"excuse me so much, now I really have to go I'm in a hurry, at this point I really think we'll be catching up with our dogs often, around," he says smiling and god those dimples are beautiful.

"absolutely yes, I'll catch you around then, see you!"

the boy, whose name I don't even know, I couldn't look at his face, unfortunately, having been a bit embarrassed, I could barely look at his smile and being tall, I was ashamed to raise my whole head to look at his face and then I was so focused on calming the little jade that I didn't pay much attention to him, but inside of me, I really hope to be able to meet him again.

"What a fool you made me do little jade, you must never, ever bark at the other dogs for no reason, do you understand?"

I say to little jade, taking her in my arms.

but at some point it's like I feel a sense of guilt inside me, maybe I should have asked that boy his name?

I turned to see if he was still around, but unfortunately, he is gone, at this point, I will always have to take jade for a walk along this street, in the hope of being able to see him again.

"now little jade, we have to go home or else mommy cares"

I decide not to think about it anymore and head home.