Please recommend a novel. The female lead has a plot of self-harm and albinism, and the male lead's surname is Si?

I recommend "You're My First Heart, Hard to Understand", a romantic youth-pure love novel for you. The female protagonist was betrayed by her family and used self-harm to exchange for freedom, but she insisted on not dropping out of school and not having an abortion. The male protagonist's surname might be "Si", and he would occasionally turn dark in the middle. He took great pains to keep her by his side. Every day, he would ask her not to say,"Next time you have any questions about the meaning of life, come to me directly. I will make you reluctant to die." I hope you like this fairy's recommendation. Muah ~😗